Oh, my God. I am so tired. I should really be going to sleep and not journaling.
I called out of work tomorrow, which I think was a smart move. I’m still going to have to work for about two and a half hours in the morning, and then I plan to study for a couple of hours in the afternoon. But I canceled on 5 clients, which is a big relief. I just can’t imagine how I could do everything and see those clients and get any relaxing accomplished whatsoever.
I had to really sit and think about what I would find relaxing. I’m pretty sure I’ve decided that what I want to do is go out to eat at a nice restaurant by myself. I want to eat good food without having to look at anybody or hold a conversation. I can just breathe, enjoy the flavors, and enjoy the service.
I got most of the fun stuff in the mail today that I ordered. I’m still waiting for my daughter’s dress (for the photoshoot) and my mother-in-law’s Mother’s Day jewelry, but everything else came in and I’m pretty happy with most of it. I have to exchange the shoes I got for my daughter for a bigger size, but they look super cute. I decided to return the shoes I ordered for myself and order completely different ones.
Once this licensing exam is out of the way, I feel like I’m going to cruise through the rest of this pregnancy. If you haven’t noticed by my incessant writing about it, I’m very much looking forward to Mother’s Day, my haircut and color, the photoshoot, and the Sprinkle. I’ve beefed the shit out of my baby registry, which has been fun. 4th of July should be fun, too. By then I’ll officially be on maternity leave, so I should be in that sweet spot where all work stresses are gone and I don’t yet have a newborn to worry about. All in all, I have a lot to look forward to.
First, I just gotta pass this damn exam.
Until next time <3
PS After I posted this I saw the little excerpt from the entry I wrote a year ago today that pops up on the side of the page. I wrote that I’d been thinking about Justin for reasons that weren’t clear to me. In fact, it turns out it was this time last year when I found out he was married. It doesn’t seem like a coincidence to me that this same time this year, I’m thinking about him again. I’m just not sure what the significance of this time of the year is…
Last updated April 30, 2021