Well, the Final Mock Exam yesterday went much worse than I could have imagined, which is extremely frustrating considering my REAL exam is on Monday…
I don’t know if I mentioned it, but when I took the last 4-hour mock exam, I finished with about 20 minutes to spare. For some stupid reason, I thought there was a fair chance that would happen again. I decided to start the exam at 10:20am (instead of 10:30am like the real exam) because I had a client scheduled at 2:30pm and I thought that would give me a few minutes to switch gears when the time came.
The way the test is formatted is that each question is on a separate page. Once you answer the question, you click a button that navigates you to the next page. At the top of each page, is a timer, counting down your time. I try to make it a point to scroll down so I can’t see the timer as soon as each page loads, but, as you can imagine, I see it. Really, I just do my best not to really register what it says or react to it. Regardless, I am always somewhat aware of the time.
I knew before I was even halfway done that I was not moving as fast as I’d like. Some quick math told me that I had to maintain my pace exactly, or I’d fall behind… but maintaining your pace on a 4-hour exam (did I mention it is FOUR HOURS?) is easier said than done. Then, to make matters worse, my internet started crashing, repeatedly! Each time it crashed I’d have to sit there for 2-3 minutes waiting for it to fix itself, and there was literally nothing I could do about it. This probably happened at least 4-5 times, meaning I lost close to 15 minutes on an extremely stressful timed test. Grr.
When I was on question 120 or so of 170, I could see that I only had about 50 minutes left. That’s one minute per question, and these questions take way longer than one minute. Each question requires about a half of a page of reading and then contemplation. And that was the thing about this particular “Final Mock Exam.” I swear, while it was the same number of questions, and I had the same amount of time as I did on the other mocks, the questions seemed WAY longer and WAY more complex!
Side note: At the beginning of the first three mock exams I took, it had this disclaimer:
”Historically, scoring in the mid-70%s prior to sitting for the exam has been a good indication of exam readiness. If you are moving in that direction, you are in good shape!”
I don’t recall my exact scores, but they were in the neighborhood of 75%. And at the beginning of the Final Mock exam, it had this disclaimer (literally bolded like this):
NOTE: The passing score on this mock is 50%. If you score around a 50% +/-, you are in good shape!
This first final mock is based on feedback we received over the past two years. It is very challenging and designed to over-prepare you for the actual exam. In fact, we asked several people who recently PASSED their CA MFT Clinical Exam to complete it and provide feedback, and they felt it was a very helpful mock and in some ways more challenging than the actual exam. If you score SIGNIFICANTLY lower on this mock compared to your other mocks (20-30 percentage points), do not get discouraged! Learn from your mistakes and work with a TDC coach if you have questions.
STILL, though… as I was constantly reminded that I was behind on time, the temperature in my condo literally started to rise. 80 degrees, 82 degrees, 84 degrees… and I started to SWEAT.
I didn’t finish, you guys. Like, I didn’t finish by a lot. Around question 155 I just started skipping questions that looked too long and complicated to answer, and I’m pretty sure I ultimately left about 12 questions totally unanswered. Obviously I didn’t have ANY extra time, meaning I finished the exam at 2:20pm, without having had anything for lunch and (this is the fun part) without even having gotten dressed or put makeup on for work yet, which was in 10 minutes. I was dripping sweat, and then I get my score. Drum roll please…
Despite the disclaimer saying 50% is passing and that I shouldn’t be discouraged by my score being significantly lower than my previous mocks, this felt like a huge blow. I am NOT USED to getting scores that low on anything!
Now that it’s been a day, I’m using my coping skills to try my best not to let it psyche me out. This is the REAL test. And that’s literally what I’ve been told from everybody who has taken the exam. It’s not as much a test of your intelligence as it is a test of your endurance and anxiety management skills. Breathes.
I’ve decided to take the advice of my therapist and a friend. I’m going to call out of work tomorrow. My plan is to spend the first half of the day reviewing all my study materials, and the second half of the day getting out of the house and doing something that I find relaxing. Then, on Sunday night, I’m bringing my daughter over to my in-law’s house to assure that I get a full night of rest.
On the day of the real exam, I know I will be fully rested, and I won’t have to worry about the internet crashing or the temperature rising. I am also led to believe the test will be easier than the one I took yesterday.
I WILL PASS.
That is all.
Last updated April 30, 2021