It seems like every day I am mad at someone or something else.
I was mad at my in-laws about the car seat thing. And then I was mad at Alex for minimizing my efforts. Right now I’m mad at my supervisor for putting me in a compromising situation, professionally.
I have shared that I don’t want to work with couples or families, but, being an associate, I understand that I don’t always get a say in these things. That being said, I don’t believe I have adequate experience or training to be meeting with families or couples unless I’m receiving supervision in these areas. I currently have one couple and one family on my caseload, and last week an issue with the family arose that I didn’t know how to manage. I contacted my supervisor, and she told me to cancel any appointments that were made last week so we could go over my next move in supervision this week. I was like, “Okay, good. She’s going to give me some guidance.”
Only, she totally didn’t! I met with her yesterday, and nothing she said was helpful. She told me to “go over the no secret’s policy, establish ground rules, and develop treatment goals.” I’m like, WTF? We did all that weeks ago!
I told her that I don’t feel like I have the right skillset to do this, and she just kept rephrasing the same suggestions and saying that it’s going to be good for me to develop this skillset now because I’m going to get “a lot of inquiries” about working with families in the future. Gah! I am going to be licensed in a few months, and I have NO INTENTION of working with families in the future. There are about a billion ways I can expand my knowledge, but 1) why would I do it in a way that is totally irrelevant to any of my future ambitions, and 2) this doesn’t feel like expanding my knowledge, regardless. It sounds more to me like she doesn’t know how to work with families either and she’s just pretending to.
So I’m mad about that. I am going to have to continue to meet with this family, pretend I know what I’m doing, and, unless something completely unexpected happens, continue to provide a half-ass service to them until they drop out because it’s not working. What a fucking nightmare.
Anyway. Other than that life is good. I need to go and start studying now. Until next time <3
Last updated March 25, 2021