It’s hard to believe I’m 23 weeks pregnant right now. I feel in disbelief both that I’m pregnant in the first place and that I’m not closer to my delivery. I just feel so huge and also very emotional. Each day feels like a rollercoaster ride, even when, like I wrote in my last entry, not that much is actually happening.
We got our stimulus yesterday, which was pretty exciting. We just used it to pay off our credit card, which had our property taxes on it. So now we’re totally out of credit card debt, which is nice. I also bought my daughter a new throw blanket, sheets, curtains, and some wall décor so we could change up her room a little. She has been sleeping with two little baby blankets since she was a baby, and she’s big enough now that she’s been asking for a bigger blanket. So that’s what inspired everything. Her favorite color is purple, so obviously she needed a purple blanket. Her bedroom currently has a baby pink theme, so the sheets, curtains, and wall décor should incorporate the purple in nicely.
I think I mentioned it a few weeks ago, but I started burning candles again for the first time since before becoming a parent. I have been trying to find a brand and scent that suit me, and I think I finally figured it out. At first I was looking at luxury candles, because they tend to burn longer and smell stronger, but I found a brand at Target called Project 62 that I really like. Very exciting shit, ha.
I guess the last thing worth mentioning today is that I had to confront my in-laws, I think for the first time ever, and it was totally awkward and I totally hated it and I hope I never have to do it again. It was about my daughter’s car seat. I had made it very clear (I thought) that she was to be rear-facing until I said otherwise. They had been pushing to turn her to forward facing because she’s so tall, but I explained that it’s not as safe to be forward facing and so I wanted her rear facing. Well, they knowingly went against my wishes and turned the car seat in their car to forward facing in secret. My husband found out first and confronted them, and they said they’d turn it back. So we dropped it. We recently found out they’d turned it to forward facing AGAIN. I was fucking livid.
SO, last night when I picked my daughter up, I showed my mother-in-law a YouTube video that explains what happens to a small child in a forward-facing car seat during a collision compared to what happens to a small child in a rear facing car seat (video summary: forward facing = paralysis/death, rear facing = 90% less injury). I explained that I was upset to learn that they’d turned the car seat around, and I would like to see for myself that they had changed it back before going home that evening. I could feel my whole body nearly trembling with tension, because I don’t have the type of relationship with my in-law’s where I can comfortably disagree with them. But this is my daughter’s safety, and they crossed a line. I really believe they owe me an apology, but I have no expectation that I’ll get one. All I want is to know for sure that they are going to respect my wishes this time. UGH.
So that’s the latest drama. It’s time for me to get to work.
Until next time <3
Last updated March 18, 2021