Yesterday I decided that I was tired of drinking plain ol’ water. So, I loaded up the banking up and see if my broke ass had about 5 bucks that I could take to the store and use to buy some flavoring packets for it. I opened the app, looked at my balance, and promptly soiled myself.
I had almost 3k in the account.
It seems Mr Biden, love him or hate him, has been busy. A stimulus that I honestly wasn’t even aware of passed. Shows how much attention I’ve been paying. So naturally, I went straight to the store and bought 600 boxes of flavor packets.
No not really. But now the question, and the point of this entry… What DO I do with the money?
I am of two minds. The older, more mature, more sensible part of me recognizes that my vehicle has been out of commission for awhile now and is likely not making a return. Getting some wheels again would be nice in countless ways. Uber exists and kinda fills that void pretty easily right now, and at a comparative price. But there is a certain freedom and relaxation in not being so bound to that.
It would also please the in-law, but at the risk of sounding rude I don’t care if he’s pleased with what I do with it. NO disrespect, he’s a great guy and I love him. But I can’t let the opinions of others sway important decisions for ME.
Then there is the part of me that sees the opportunity to get a mountain of stuff I’ve been wanting for awhile now. Stuff that would make me genuinely more happy in life. Not that a vehicle wouldn’t, but it’s different. I see my chance to get all the things that I’ve been wanting, and to be able to step back and say “okay I’m good. I don’t need anything now.” And to be fair, points towards adulting, some of the stuff including in that is a wardrobe upgrade and some health/fitness apps. I feel like saving up money for a car in the future would be so.much.easier if I were content in all the other ways.
I can’t seem to find a clear answer. I need to think some more. I think I’ll go for a nice, long walk this morning and listen to an audio book. Maybe the chance to actually stop thinking about it for awhile will help yield me the answers that I need. Some times taking a step away and breathing helps, after all.
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