It’s gotta be a super-fast entry today! I just got done seeing two back-to-back clients, am currently on a lunch break, and then have supervision and four more clients to go. Whew! Busy day, today.
Last night my daughter was on I-don’t-even-know how many nights in a row of waking up a ridiculous number of times. I’ve tried a few things before, but it’s hard because trying to hold boundaries when I’m half asleep and frustrated puts me at a huge disadvantage, and for a minute it seemed like just giving her what she wants (to be tucked in again and again) was the easiest way to get through the night. But then, she would just take advantage of me.
Last night, after coming into my room requesting to be re-tucked in for the fourth time in 90 minutes, I decided to tell her that next time she gets out of bed, daddy was going to be the one to tuck her back in. By the way, I’ve noticed that the look on her face when she’s waking me up over and over is pretty proud, which admittedly ticks me off just a little extra. Anyway, having daddy tuck her in is not like some kind of crazy threat, but…
Of course, she got out of bed again, and when my husband when to tuck her back in, she tried to win the power struggle with a classic, over-the-top freak out. Only, I’m over it. She somehow ran around him and came to me, screaming and sobbing, and I told her she could let daddy tuck her in or daddy was going to put her in time out.
So, there we were, with our melting down toddler in timeout at 2am. Good times. But guess what? She didn’t get out of bed again for the rest of the night. I WILL ALWAYS WIN (I try to convince myself…).
The last few nights have taken such a toll on me that I’ve started to have nighttime hallucinations. It’s happened several times now where I will be totally asleep and then suddenly awoken by the sound of my daughter’s bedroom door opening. It’s so real! Sometimes I’m even in the middle of a totally unrelated dream when I hear the sound and am shaken awake by it. Then I’ll uncover myself and get up to start walking towards my daughter’s bedroom and my husband will be like, “what are you doing?” and I’m like, “I’m going to—” and I’ll look at the monitor and my daughter is all tucked under her blankets, passed out. So weird.
Well, that’s all for today. The only other thing on my mind is the list of things I’m waiting to arrive from Amazon (always fun) and the list of things I have been obsessively thinking about re: deep cleaning my house. It’s probably not all that fun to read about, though, so I’ll just mention that it’s what I think about constantly and leave it at that.
Until next time <3
Last updated March 10, 2021