Venting My Frustrations... in Staying Connected

  • March 5, 2021, 11:58 a.m.
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Ooph. So far, everything about this pregnancy seems to be more difficult than the last.

In my first trimester, I was much more nauseous and moody than I remember being the first time I got pregnant. I also got heart burn, which is a symptom I don’t recall experiencing at all the first time.

Now that I’m in my second trimester, the two most disruptive symptoms by far are the fatigue (oh, the fatigue!) and the shortness of breath. I can never fucking breathe! Which, in my mind, just exasperates everything else. I feel like so much of my patience and energy just goes towards coping with the constant lack of oxygen.

I don’t think the fatigue would be a problem if I didn’t have a toddler running around all day demanding my attention and then waking up 4,000 times overnight. It’s true what they say! Being a parent is never-ending, and when you’re not feeling well… tough shit.

I’m also dealing with some mild constipation. I don’t think this would bother me much at all in ordinary circumstances, but right now it just feels like another thing to add to the list of things that are causing me distress and discomfort. I’ve started making a habit of drinking at least my 32oz water bottle throughout the day and then an additional 16oz vitamin water with Miralax every night. It’s been about three days, and so far I haven’t noticed any change. I hope it’ll make an impact on my system in the next few days…

Basically, I’m just here this morning to bitch and moan.

Last weekend my “big goal” for my time off (other than the usual household crap) was to deep clean the guest bathroom. Well, I was able to get the mirror, counters, toilet, and floors clean, and my husband even poured some Draino down the sink, which has made a night-and-day difference, but I also wanted to clean out all the residue in the tub and I just could. not. Just cleaning the bathroom felt like it took me out for the rest of the week. Part of me wonders if that is the think I’m still trying to recover from now.

Ugh. Pregnancy sucks.

Yesterday was supposed to be a study day, but I was in so much physical agony that I took the front half of the day off (I still had four clients yesterday afternoon) and just lay in bed for about three hours. That made me feel better yesterday, but after another disruptive night of sleep… I feel like shit again today. Which is frustrating. Now I’m a week behind on my studying, and for what??

I hope I can catch a break at some point before delivering this baby. There is still so much to do…

Until next time <3

Last updated March 05, 2021

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