Within the last 24 hours, my oldest sister and I had a major falling out. I will spare the details, b/c there really is not much to tell, except to say that last night I phoned to tell her something. She was very condescending and talked down to me, so in an e-mail, I told her that I was cancelling our plans for today. That was last night. I had been up since 3am. At the dr.s office, they let all of the patients in ahead of me, even the ones whom came in after I arrived. My appointment was for 10am. I got there a little after 9. I was not seen until going on 11am. I was ready to walk out. I was spitting nails. I did not get home until after 12pm. The way the bingo crowd treated me was terrible. A so-called friend whom comes over to have me look up things on the computer for him, is always making off-color comments to me. I have had it with him, as well. Another acquaintance knocked on my door this morning, wanting to make a call on my landline. He stayed on my phone for 45 minutes. Finally, I said, “Tim, you are going to have to wind down your conversation, b/c I have things to do. So, to the other person on the line, he said, “I am being thrown out”, then he got off of my phone. I said look, I am not throwing you out. I have things to do. I have had it with him, too. He is just using me for my phone. Before I let him in, I had already hit rock bottom, and was lying down on the couch, staring out into space, so you can imagine what that little scenario did to me.
Bear has tried to be very supportive of me, throughout this whole period. I am beginning to think that I am relapsing into Bipolar Depression. Time will tell. My conversation w/ my sister was the icing on the cake. More later.