I’ve been growing increasingly anxious over the past few days, and I’m not totally sure what to attribute it to. I believe it’s largely connected to the lack of diversity in my routine. As I mentioned in a previous entry, I’ve recently come into a lot of free time, and I don’t really have the freedom to use it as I’d like to. I really just want to get the hell out of this condo. I want to eat at restaurants and go for hikes and laugh with friends. Hopefully getting to see a couple friends over the next few weeks helps take the edge off.
In the meantime, I feel like I just don’t know what to do with myself. Technically there is always something to do, but none of it feels right. None of it hits the spot. My condo always needs cleaning. I always have the option of resting, watching TV, napping, etc. I could eat. It’s just agitating having two hours laid out in front of you and having none of the available options feel right. It’s like, no matter what I do, I’m going to feel like I’ve wasted my time.
Valentine’s Day is going well. I woke up to a bouquet of flowers, a large box of chocolates, and a card. I got my husband a card from me and a card from my daughter. And our family got my in-laws a nice bottle of white wine, some chocolate covered blueberries, some chocolate cashew treats, a cappuccino scented candle, and a card from our daughter. Right now my daughter is taking a nap, and we’re going to surprise them with their gift after she wakes up. Then, this evening we’re planning on cooking up our gourmet, heart-shaped, Italian cheese raviolis (courtesy of COSTCO) for dinner with a fancy top-shelf garlic and basil sauce. I’m actually kind of excited for that.
My husband and I still haven’t decided what we want to do for our date night on Tuesday. We both agreed that trying a new restaurant sounds good, but, beyond that, we’re stumped. We don’t really have much time, either. After we drop off our daughter, around 6pm, we’ll probably go straight to dinner. By the time we’re done with that it will already be 7:30 or 8:00, and we’re grandparents around here. I’m pretty much done by 10pm, and then we both have to work in the morning. So far it sounds like the only idea we have is to rent a movie. Maybe we’ll pick up some kind of special dessert or something.
Well, I think I’m going to use the rest of my daughter’s nap to have some lunch and start cleaning out Morgan’s corner so we can put her crib together next weekend. Until next time <3
Last updated February 14, 2021