EDIT: The Board of Behavioral Services is currently reviewing applications turned in during the week my application was received, which means sometime in the next week I should know if my hours were accepted or not. OMG!!!
In addition to attending trainings, another thing I look forward to in the future is being more involved in my community. I got a letter in the mail today saying that the City of Long Beach is holding a meeting in a few weeks, and that’s just one of countless events that go on around here. Of course, by the time “being more involved in my community” is a realistic goal for me, we won’t be in Long Beach anymore. But I don’t see that stopping me. I’d like to be a part of HOA meetings, school board meetings, or to get involved in local nonprofit work after we move to Temecula.
When I think about the primary reasons those types of involvement feel out of reach for me today, it’s because I’m drowning in my basic day to day functioning. I can’t even keep my house clean. There are a few factors that lead to my belief that this will be less of an issue in the future. 1) My kids will be older and require less attention, 2) I will hopefully make enough money to pay for help with my kids AND help with my housework, 3) Having a bigger house will mean more space to spread out and think, thus increased organization and peace of mind.
The other day I was talking to my mom on the phone and I told her about how I imagined myself at 60. She is 65 now, so 60 wasn’t long ago for her. When I told her my plans, she added, “and watching the grandchildren.” With almost no hesitation at all, I was like, “I don’t really have any desire to watch my grandchildren.” I know this is getting way ahead of myself, but it was a little awkward because I kind of got the feeling that my mom took offense to it. But I don’t really see why. I mean, she didn’t really like having that as a full time job, either. It actually caused a lot of drama between her and my brother. And now she only watches my nephew half a day, one day per week.
I tried to explain to her that my mother-in-law has no hobbies. My mom enjoys reading, golf, gardening, going for walks, and home renovations. My mother-in-law doesn’t do anything except errands, household chores, and watching TV. For her, I think watching our daughter is quite fulfilling. She often talks about how she wasn’t able to spend that kind of time with her own kids, so she’s making up for it now. I don’t know. I think I’ll love spending time with my grandchildren on evenings and weekends. I can see myself babysitting them on special occasions, like “date night” for my kids. But I just don’t see it as a full time gig. Maybe it’s because I spent so much time with kids in my 20’s. I’m just kind of over it.
Anyway! That’s all. I just thought it was an interesting thought. I’ve got a busy day ahead of me, so I’m going to get to it! Happy Thursday <3
Last updated February 05, 2021