3 Years in 2021

  • Jan. 7, 2021, 8:11 a.m.
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3 years ago I finally put cigarettes down. It was both the hardest and the easiest thing that I have ever done.

I had spent years and years trying to quit. It was grueling and horrible and then I was very disappointed in my weakness as I resigned and went back to smoking.

3 years ago, today, I didn’t even make a decision. I didn’t plan to quit at that time. I was smoking a cigarette on my back deck and halfway through it, I looked at it, asked myself what the hell I was doing, put it out and threw half a pack of cigarettes away. I haven’t looked back since.

I had smoked most of my life. Having lived in a house with 2 smoking adults, I picked up smoking at the tender age of 12. So, I actively smoked for 30 years and I passively smoked for the first 12 years of my life. That is 42 years of tar and nicotine.

I have not missed smoking. Every now and then I smell a fresh burning cigarette and it smells good to me. But the smell that clings to people, that is totally disgusting.  Sometimes I am sitting in my home and I have one of those “smell memories” and I just smell an old wet ashtray. It is disgusting!

For a time, I dreamed about smoking regularly. As time has gone on those dreams have mostly stopped. The feelings in my dreams about smoking has changed as well. It used to be happy/content feelings when I would dream of smoking. Lately it has turned into anxiety and dread while I dream of smoking.

I also every now and then catch myself; I’ll be watching tv and my show goes to commercial, I’ll jump up off of the couch. This would be when I would head outside for my “Fix”. I laugh at myself and sit back down. It is so funny how behaviors are ingrained so much and we don’t even really think about most of what we do.

All of this to say that I am today celebrating 3 full years of being a non-smoker!  There was a time when I could never have dreamed of seeing this day. 2 more years and I will have reversed all of the damage that I had done to my lungs and body in those 42 years of smoking. In 2 years my chance of lung caner and other health issues associated with smoking will be at the same percentage rate as someone who has never smoked a cigarette in their life!

We are most definitely going to celebrate that day!  I may even celebrate all year for that!

If you are trapped in the vicious cycle of drug addiction, just know that there is a way to get out of it that is painless and even enjoyable. If you want more information on how I accomplished this, please feel free to contact me. If there is enough interest, I’ll create a public post

“The whole business of smoking is like forcing yourself to wear tight shoes just to get the pleasure of taking them off.”

― Allen Carr

Last updated January 07, 2021

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Lacrime di Drago Tuesday's Child ⋅ January 07, 2021

Thank you! :)

Muddled Mommy January 07, 2021

Awesome! Such a huge accomplishment!

Lacrime di Drago Muddled Mommy ⋅ January 07, 2021

Thank you! I am very proud of this, as you can tell! :)

Maggie Cassidy January 07, 2021

Congrats. I'm on 49 days and counting. Hoping I can write this in 3 years as well. The dreams are killing me right now.

Lacrime di Drago Maggie Cassidy ⋅ January 07, 2021

One day at a time. sometimes one second at a time. Just realize smokers only smoke to relieve the pain of withdrawal from their last cigarette. The only time that we ever felt like a non-smoker was when we were actively smoking. This little monster will go away. I have whole groups of time (Weeks and weeks) where I don't even think about a cigarette. Keep it up. Reach of if you need to!

Maggie Cassidy Lacrime di Drago ⋅ January 07, 2021

Thank you, that's really nice of you to offer!

Lacrime di Drago Maggie Cassidy ⋅ January 07, 2021

We gotta stick together! :)

tracker2020 January 21, 2021

It's been about 18 years or so for me. Big pat on the back, high five and atta girl. I blame the passive smoking from my parents. Oh and then again my bf pushed me so hard to smoke that even after my first puff got me choking I took another one and I was hooked. :-)

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