I am trying desperately to catch the bandwagon that I tumbled from just before Baby Girl and Junior’s wedding. It seems a bit stupid right now to be trying to get back on a losing weight kick when I still have tomorrow night to get through where there will be copious amounts of alcohol and yummy yummy treats to eat.
I admit, I have been a glutton. I have worked my way up to eating not only breakfast lunch and dinner, but also two or 3 high calorie snacks in between. And those “meal” times are not a moderate portion size. I like super size everything. eating at least twice the needed amount. So is it any wonder that I weigh more than I ever have in my entire life?
I feel like crap. It is exhausting to just stand up, let alone actually walk anywhere. I get out of breathe walking very very short distances. my knees back and ankles hurt badly. I can’t tie my shoes without about passing out. I have no clothes to wear. I am in my husband’s clothing now as I refuse to buy the size 14 or 16 that I really need. My Daily Activities of Living are suffering badly. I need to do something.
So, today I managed to make it until lunch time without eating. I had what I consider a moderate amount of food at lunch. It was still too much and it certainly was not very “good for me” food, but one step at a time. So, now my goal is to make it to dinner where me and hubby have been trying to get into eating something relatively healthy and an appropriate size portion for dinner at least.
Starting either this weekend or early next week I will be headed back to the Intermittent Fasting diet. I felt so much better while on that. I will also be strictly sticking to the Gluten Free diet when I do eat. My Celiac Disease necessitates that. Some of this weight gain may actually just be inflammation from me eating gluten. It really does make me feel terrible.
I’ll be getting back with my exercise trainer friend who lives in North Carolina. I really wish I could find someone here to help motivate me, but I have not been good at making new friends for a long time. So, it appears that I will be on my own except for a virtual kick in the butt here and there.
I have been eating my feelings for so long now. It’s been years of going the wrong way with my weight and my health. It’s time to face my emotions in a productive way and get my diet and weigh under control for the good of my health.
I would really LOVE to talk one of my best friends, who currently lives in Louisiana, into moving here. She is not against the idea, we jut have no idea when she may be able to move. She is going through a divorce and her soon to be ex lives in Louisiana, so she can’t leave with their son until he is 18 unless he allows it or a judge orders it. I know she wants to move to the East Coast as her mom lives in Virginia. I really am going to start pushing a bit to see if I can convince her that this is a good area to move to.
I guess that is it for now. My lunch break is over and I need to get some work done before I leave out of here for our 4 day weekend!!!
“Instead of indulging in ‘comfort food,’ indulge in comfort meditation, comfort journaling, comfort walking, comfort talking, comfort manicures, comfort reading, comfort yoga, comfort hugging.”– Karen Salmansohn
Last updated December 31, 2020