I didn’t want to go to Dillon’s house but my husband criticized me and wanted to know why I hate his friends.. I was hoping to visit my best friend Tella after months of distance. My husband said he didn’t have money to buy his friends presents for Christmas so I bought each one of his friends a rechargeable flashlight. I bought my friends nothing for Christmas to be sure his friends got presents.. My friends will get theirs later when I buy them.
I sat bored texting Tella at Dillon’s house my mom criticized me on text I should have ran her around and do her chores today. She was angry that I drove Talan to his friends house. Mom made me feel like shit I just wanted to go to bed. I only have 1 car I am only 1 person I cannot please everyone.my husband and my mom need to learn to take turns! They both have a jealousy streak against one another and guilts me all the damn time!
Mom said I was hired to run her around tomorrow. She got furious when I told her I got to drive Talan to visit his mom at Meadow Bridge in the morning for a late Christmas after that I got to drop him off I got to go to work and work a 6 hour shift.. She screamed that Talan’s mom had to pick him up that Mom comes first. I reminded her she has a truck drive herself.. She said no I am her taxi I run her chores for her. She isn’t disabled just lazy.
My chest was hurting from agrivation. I tried to tell mom how good the Windys salads are.. She said if I want a salad drive to her house she will give me one if I earn it. Mom has been acting out since I got a second job.. My husband was about to cuss my mom out. I muted the phone sent him in the next room. He wants to cuss her and start a fight over her attitude.if they fight she will always view herself right no matter what.. Save your damn oxygen.
Talan knew I was having chest pains and told me to go to the hospital. The hospital is a high chance of catching covid. I don’t want to visit the hospital. I told him I rather drop dead first.. He said why and I told him if I die I don’t have to hear him and mom complain. He in return said if I die of stress he will make sure mom follows shortly after.
While at Dillon’s house I got bored and made a no sew blanket by tying knots. Talan thought I was being rude by making a blanket on their couch. I looked him in the eye and said I don’t give a damn! Right now I am cuddled under the Beetlejuice blanket I made. No regret on my behalf.. He is lucky I didn’t crochet a blanket on their couch. I was so damn bored I was thinking of leaving him there. Honestly I didn’t want to come. I wanted to stay home and nap! His friends ignored me most of the time and paid attention to him.. Who cares I tied a blanket for fun!
I can’t find my yarn and crochet needles at the moment. I bought a book at Goodwill earlier this week to teach me how to crochet better. I hope to do more peaceful crafts and less agrivating conversations.
I often feel it doesn’t matter how I feel as long as everyone else is hapoy. I am only a gamepiece in this miserable game of life.. Someday I will find happiness. Just not today.