Lower Expectations in Staying Connected

As you know, last week was a rough week for me morning sickness-wise. I’m sure I’ve written on countless occasions how my household goals each week include a minimum of washing, drying, and putting away three loads of laundry as well as finishing the dishes and cleaning off the kitchen counter. As long as that stuff is done, I can kind of relax, even though I rarely get around to cleaning the floors, dusting, or giving the bathrooms any attention at all. That’s just been my life for the past couple of years. Maybe someday we’ll be in a position to hire some help.

ANYWAY, last week, due to morning sickness, I couldn’t even complete my basic tasks, and the past seven days have felt like years of living in filth. I didn’t feel guilty at all, but I did feel a little disgusted and frustrated.

As you know, after being unable to do my regular routine at the beginning of last week, by Thursday I had completely crashed, essentially losing the entire day. Then, I spent the weekend living one hour at a time. Yesterday I saw a few clients, and in between clients I mostly just sat around. I took a nap. And at that point I did start to feel a little bit guilty, because I was really hoping I could at least put some clean laundry away. But I just couldn’t bring myself to be productive at all. I was still too exhausted.

All of that being said, I’m happy to report that today I completed those tasks!

I almost said, “reached my goals,” but that wouldn’t have been entirely true. There are a couple of more things I’d like to get done (like take a shower) before I’ll feel like I’m back at baseline. But I’m just going to take what small victories I can get right now. Today is still a good day.

Last updated December 10, 2020