Yawn in Staying Connected

  • Nov. 27, 2020, 4:26 p.m.
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Happy Black Friday, everyone.

I’m still fatigued as all hell almost all the time now. What else?

My husband and I got into a relatively big argument yesterday morning about him insisting we’re getting a house in six months. I’m like, dude—what happened to not being rushed? He said something about six months not being rushed, and I told him that to me, the person who has to

1) get her hours approved
2) study for licensing exam
3) pass licensing exam
4) get a new, higher paying job
5) do it all while pregnant and while momming my current child (which I already feel like I’m barely pulling off)

it does feel rushed. I feel an incredible amount of pressure. There are a lot of things that could go wrong, and all of those things fall on my side of the equation. Meanwhile, all he has to do is live his life the way he already has been.

That isn’t all to say that I’m not going to try. I sure as hell am going to try. I would just like to hear, “Whether you pull it off, or you don’t, we’ve got each other and we’ll see this thing through,” instead of, “If we don’t go out and get a house in six months, then I’m going to be bitter, angry, and resentful.” I think I deserve some god damn support.

In other news, I told my new job that I’m available to start working as early as next Tuesday. They had originally wanted me to start this week, but I told them I couldn’t. They still haven’t given me any kind of contractual agreement. I feel a little out of the loop about how everything is going to look. They said they are going to schedule my clients for me, which seems weird to me. I don’t know. I’m feeling a little sketched out about the whole thing, but I’m still waiting to see how it plays out.

Oh, I forgot to mention Thanksgiving. It was fine. There were a total of eight households in attendance, which is a lot. However, I think we did a pretty good job of social distancing. Nobody touched anybody at all. I found a corner to sit in and stayed there for the duration of the party. I don’t know what else to say. I’d rather just forget about it now that it’s over, honestly.

Next on the agenda? Tomorrow we’re going Christmas tree shopping. We decided to get a live tree this year and most likely we’ll buy a fake one once we have a house, hopefully next year. I bought all the presents for my husband and my daughter, aside from a few more cheap stocking stuffers. All that’s left now is to push my husband to buy what he wants for his sister, parents, grandparents, and god parents, and then to wrap everything, of course. I’m excited to put up our Christmas decorations.

I have three more clients today before I’m ready for the weekend. I hope they go by quickly. As I mentioned, I’m tired.

Until next time <3

Last updated November 27, 2020

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