I haven’t been feeling anything this week. I don’t know if it’s just physical discomfort or anxiety or what, but I’ve just kind of been feeling like dirt. I don’t have a lot of energy, don’t really want to do anything. I managed to finish one of my big assignments today, an essay on 3 events that lead to or affected the civil war (I went with the invention of the cotton gin (duh,) the tariff of abomination, and the Texas revolt,) but I haven’t managed much else. I’ve been short-tempered and Nathan has been stubborn and argumentative, which is not a good mix. I had a stand-off with him about bathroom issues this morning, which was actually kind of funny but not much fun.
A small success, I have managed not to eat my feelings. I’ve been drinking more water (or SF lemonade, same diff… 😏) and haven’t been snacking. It’s a small but significant victory. I haven’t been terribly strict with my diet, but my jeans are fitting better and I can see small changes, even if the scale is being stubborn. Gotta remember that our Mexican nights are super salt-heavy and I always regret it in the days following (but queso is life, yo.)
One more assignment to do before Sunday, and it’s a much less structured assignment than others have been, so I’m hoping to finish it tonight. It involves watching 2 hours of video, which I could do without, but it is what it is.
I also got pictures and a signed form sent out for the Land Board.. I really would like to see my MFing contractor to see him getting shit finished, and oh yeah, I need some signatures from him. Grr.
This will be my last quiet weekend for a while. Next weekend is Ren Fest, because a literal zombie apocalypse would not keep me from Ren Fest, and it’s all outdoor anyway. I can’t wait for a weekend away. We’re heading out Friday night, setting up camp, spending the day at the Fest, and heading home Sunday. My brother is going to be staying with Nathan, which I’m not exactly thrilled about, but I have to remember that he’s been watching our friend’s kids for basically their whole lives and hasn’t lost one or eaten one, so I think he’ll be alright.
The weekend after that is Halloween, so I’ll have that to prepare for. I don’t have any more external decoration to worry about, since they did the judging Wed/Thurs, and thankfully so… a storm last night blew down my gates, my ghosts, a spider, a couple signs, and my caution-taped body markers. I just got it set back up before sunset.
I got some suuuper cute Halloween earrings in the mail… damn you, amazon, making spending so darn convenient. I’m a huge sucker for Halloween earrings… I definitely have enough to wear a different pair every day of October and have some to spare. I’m really leaning into my love of Halloween, to the point that I’m considering starting a tattoo sleeve dedicated to Halloween. Autumn is really close to heart, I love everything about Halloween and October, and let’s face it.. I’m a little goth girl at heart. Wednesday Addams is my role model, blackbirds, spiders, and black cats are my spirit animals, and I live for the full moon on All Hallow’s Eve. It probably helps that I’m pagan at heart, as well, and I love feeling the end of summer and the start of a new year.
Speaking of tattoos, I have a few more planned… I want to draw up an octopus in spectacles writing with a fountain pen, using a typewriter, reading a book, consulting a map, etc, all at the same time, to represent my creative writer self. I’d like a mermaid tattoo and a pirate tattoo also, but haven’t really nailed those down yet. I can envision the octopus, I just need to get someone better at drawing than I am to sketch it out. I do have a Sally drawing that I would love to make into a tattoo also.. I want ALLTHEINK.
Our horror movie of the night is Mandy… it’s… weird.