I had to have a pap test. I did not feel at all comfortable in that office. It was only a painful reminder to me that I am 59 years old, way past menopause, and that my childbearing years are long, long over. It was just a painful reminder that I basically failed ay everything in my life, for various reasons that I have disclosed in previous entries. I hated having a pap test, but my doctor recommended it. They ask you numerous personal questions, of which I will not divulge because they are just that…extremely personal. I did not get home until 12:30pm. It was cold and chilly up at the hospital while waiting for the bus home, which was about 45 minutes. I have an October and November bus pass. That is something for which to be grateful, as it is my only means of transportation. When I got home, I called Bear while nuking a baking potato. After that, I took a 2 hour nap. I talked to Bear, then went outside for a smoke, stayed out there for a while and talked to people. On my daughter’s FB account, she posted a photo of my dad and my sister in the tomato garden. I thanked her and left two very nice comments. She deleted them both. It is as if she does not want anyone associated w/ her account to even know that I am her mother. She lists me as a “friend”. She has no photos of me on her account. I think that is terrible. I asked her on messenger as to why she deleted my comments. She did not get back to me.