Ok so I’m a tad bit stoned so I apologize cause that means this post is going to be all over the place.
Woke up this morning to a notification of a message from my mom who is bi polar Not diagnosed by Any one other than myself and siblings. Ignored it for awhile cause I had an interview. So got up went to interview for job, it went great if I could’ve passed a drug test I’d have walked away with the offer. Came home checked message from mom it wasn’t as bad as I thought just her checking in seeing how I’m doing how’s the hand healing? I replied, then started getting messages from the soon to be ex husband and kiddos (I have three girl M&M 14, Boy 12 & Baby Girl 10 - 11 on Tuesday) internet is out at the house 🤦♀️ I am not currently working and even though I haven’t lived there in like 6 months I was still helping (paying all) with bills up until two months ago. Well the S2BX hasn’t worked in two and a half years so he has no money coming in. Internet should be the least of the worries here but he’s a dumbass. Seriously that house is on the brink of foreclosure and I honestly don’t know how the utilities are still on.
Do I feel bad yes of course those are still my kids living there but at the same time they don’t want me there. They have heard a lot of lies and bad things said of me from the S2BX’s family since he and I split and I left the house. My kids don’t talk to me unless they needed something or wanted money for something. Like I said though do I feel bad yes! I want to be able to help but I have nothing to help with. From there it turns to the Ex saying that my mom has been getting in contact with my oldest daughter through Facebook messenger. And being rude about not hearing from her. M&M replies that they’ve had stuff going on and the phones are not working right now and the internet is down so she literally had NO WAY of getting in touch. Mom proceeds being ugly so when I find this out I message mom saying she needs to stop playing the victim (this is a recurring thing with mom) to which she replies fine love you ........ 🤦♀️🤦♀️🤦♀️SMDH FML!!
So now I’ve been listening to angry music, smoking, and feeling sorry for myself. This is also bound to incite more mean shit from the ex-MIL I’m most likely going to be setting the phone to silent this evening and smoking more. ✌🏼 bitches