I feel lost or like I’m drowning in a sea full of people and still no one notices. It’s a super shitty feeling.
How do you reply when the person you are over the moon in love with says to you “she’s all I’ve got” referring to his mother? Mind you it’s all he’s ever known as he’s never been on his own so to say. But when you’re coming out of a 16 year marriage where your husband would bend over backwards for his mom (not that it’s a totally bad thing) and put you and his children and the needs of his own household aside or on hold to jump into action for her it hurts.
I’ve tried to see things from his perspective and be understanding but it’s hard. One minute he tells me I am his world and he wants to be with me then in the next sentence oh she’s all I’ve got? It’s not that I want or need a lifelong commitment right now but I would like to be thought of as something.
I just don’t know anymore about anything. I want to disappear far far away and start completely over in a place where no one knows me or knows my story. Somewhere I can be ....... me.....? Honestly I don’t even know who that person is anymore though.
Last updated September 05, 2020