My daughter is going through an especially challenging stage right now. There are two things going on simultaneously.
First, she’s extremely attached to me. Like, it really borderlines on obsessive. She seems to be panicked when I’m away and instantly soothed by my presence. When I’m in the room, she follows me around like a little puppy dog and frequently says, “mummmm” while squeezing whatever part of me she can reach and rubbing her face on me. I’m the best drug to this little girl.
Last night, for the first time ever, she woke up in the middle of the night, around 12:20am, screaming and crying for me. My husband and I watched tentatively from the video monitor, hoping she could self soothe. Instead, we watched as she swung her chunky leg up over the side of her crib and tried desperately to pull herself over. Good god. I ran in there as fast as I could to prevent her from falling to her death. I know I’m being dramatic, but seriously. I couldn’t believe this shit. Things went downhill from there. We got her back to bed about 20 minutes later, and then she repeated the same routine again at 1:30am, and then again at 3am. WTF? Like I said, this is brand new. She’s slept through the night for the past nine months, every. single. night. And now this…
She woke up again at 7am, which was disappointing because with the sun up, there’s pretty much no chance of her going back to sleep. Again, she threw her leg over the side of the crib. This time, my husband ran in and when she saw that it was him and not me, she threw herself back into the crib and didn’t want him to even pick her up. It’s like this all day now. She doesn’t want him to touch her, play with her, feed her, or anything. I try to stay back as much as I can. I try to let them figure it out. But it’s a lot. I’m tired.
Second, she’s beginning to get bored with her options both at our condo and at her grandparents’ house. She’s needs more. We all see it. Not to mention, I’ve been worried about her lack of social interaction. When I was a nanny, I spent years with other people’s children, and I took them to the park several times per week to play with other children. My daughter doesn’t get any of that. When we were in Washington, she wanted nothing to do with her cousin. So I’ve been thinking and I decided…
It’s time to look into schools for her. I found a local Montessori school that takes kids as early as 2 years old. She’ll be 2 in January. The reviews looked good. It sounds more structured and educational than an ordinary daycare (and likely more expensive), so my husband and I are thinking of sending her there. They potty train your kids and everything. I think this will help in a lot of ways. She’ll be more stimulated, less bored, more social, less clingy, and I will feel emotionally relieved. I plan to call today to find out how much it’ll put us back financially, but I’m hopeful that, since I still have a few months to plan, we can pull it off.
Sigh. Time to see my next client. Until next time <3