I’m worried. Getting worried to the point that I haven’t been eating and now I’ve ruined my diet and meal prep. Today is his birthday, and I’ve sent him some kind messages and the drawing I’d done with him in mind. He hasn’t come online and I’m feeling sick to my stomach that he could be gone. I don’t have any mutual friends so I can’t even ask anyone if he’s doing alright.
I’m trying to hide my concern and despair, but I’m feeling that my mum is catching onto my low mood. I can’t tell her that this is an online friend because she’d probably freak out again and gaslight me. There’s nothing I can do to help me relax oh my god I’m going INSANE