07232020 in This little light of mine

  • July 23, 2020, 4:51 p.m.
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Unsurprisingly, it’s 4:30 pm and I’m feeling quite tired. Got melatonin while running errands this morning. When I worked in a neurologist’s office, we’d often prescribe melatonin to patients with sleep issues as a first step– starting at 3 mg, to be taken about 3 hours before bedtime to allow its effectiveness to kick in, if I recall correctly (of course it will vary depending on the individual’s biology–e.g., some metabolize products faster than others). So that’s what I’m doing now as a starting point; I got the chewy/gummy kind, since I hear it’s worked really well for a lot of people (who didn’t have as effective results with other forms of the drug).

The thing about melatonin is that it can take weeks to start showing effects, and melatonin is not an “everyday drug” as you’re supposed to eventually come off it after a couple weeks or so once your sleep stabilizes to avoid developing a dependency.

I’ve been having difficulties with fragmented sleep and insomnia. My guess is that having an inconsistent sleep schedule largely contributes to this, also the fact that I’m trying quite hard to push my bedtime up from my natural 3:00 am (I am a night owl) to 8:30 PM (and my bosses are morning larks). I’m hypothesizing that stabilizing my sleep will help with the sleep disruptions; and for my usually jam-packed schedule, sleep is everything. I’ve been trying to get a consistent schedule down for over a year now. I’m desperate.

Today my baby nephew’s books that I ordered came in. I love books so much and he seems to enjoy them too. Here are the books I got–
- A high contrast art book
- A poem that was turned into a book (about swinging), accompanied by beautiful high-contrast illustrations
- Sensory ABC book
- Sensory 123 book
- Sensory book about shapes
- Charlotte’s Web (I know it seems like I’m getting WAY ahead of myself with chapter books, but I like to read these to him while he’s falling asleep)
- Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone (loved Harry Potter– Did you know that JK Rowling has newly released another book, The Ickbog – very excited)
- A book about Pete the Cat; apparently children love this

For now I think I’ll lay off buying any more books for him, at least not until he starts getting bored with his collection (inevitably, his books will be used by his younger siblings and cousins– considering how big my family is, it’s well worth the investment imo).

Some more things about today that I’ll just put into bullet-point format–

  • So far today I’ve consumed 600 out of 800 calories. I have 200 left to go. My mom is making my favorite dish as I write, and the smell is SO INTOXICATING. I’ll probably end up going over my limit today (it is so hard to resist one’s favorites).

  • I was able to finish strength training exercises on both the upper and lower body regions. Hoping my core isn’t too sore tomorrow!

  • Gardening soon. Lately in the mornings the soil is moist and the grass, plants, etc. wet with dew. As a result I’ve been holding off on watering the garden until the sun’s had a bit of time to dry and parch things up. The garden is blooming, fruiting, etc., and we’re all very happy.
    Today the sunflowers began opening up (yay.); still waiting on the watermelon. Mom doesn’t think we’ll have any this year because we planted late.

  • The last two things on my list are studying vocabulary and reading before sleep. Will have to remember to take my melatonin at 5:30 pm today.

Overall, a productive day; thank God.

Update: 1 hour later after melatonin and I’m about to knock out. It’s only 630 pm. Wow; I wasn’t expecting this....
Good night. I say that with a full face of makeup and having drowsily crawled into my pajamas.

Oh yeah, Jon sent a text. Will text him back tomorrow. Hope it works out between us.

Can’t help the fact that my brain is really responding to this. I feel so… unencumbered; that’s the word, and it’s glorious.

Last updated July 23, 2020

simple mind July 23, 2020

My oldest has started devouring Harry Potter. It's like chapter books finally clicked for him and suddenly reading is fun. Though I guess we need to pace him since those matured along with their original audience. Ooh, I need to make sure he reads Charlotte's Web, that's a classic.

noip simple mind ⋅ July 24, 2020 (edited July 24, 2020)


I’m so glad to hear that your oldest has developed an appetite for books !! Especially in this increasingly digitalized era. It took me until I was 6 to love books, and after a required standard exam at my school, my appetite led me to developing a sophomore in high school’s reading level by the time I was 8. I think reading is so beneficial.

My parents weren’t really involved in my academics, but my teachers paced me as they didn’t want me to get discouraged or to read inappropriate topics. I think it’s wonderful you’re interested and invested in your son’s growth on this.

Yeah, Charlotte’s Web is such a sweet and touching story. I also wanted to buy Winnie-the-Pooh’s entire collection (such a wise bear), but that’s for another time. :)

simple mind noip ⋅ July 24, 2020

developing a sophomore in high school’s reading level by the time I was 8

Wow, that's impressive! It just goes to show the old-school diary sites tend to attract a more intellectual crowd.

I think it really comes down to fostering a love of learning. I think our public school system tends to strip out that love at an early age, encouraging memorization of facts to satisfy exams. Just imagine if we had a culture where teachers were respected like doctors. (come to think of it, I'm ranting about US culture here and I'm not even sure where you're at). I imagine a US education system that attracts top talent teachers who excel at making learning fun. Imagine dressing up and reenacting history instead of being slammed over the head with a text book that whitewashes everything. How sad is it that as a man in my 40s I just learned about the Tulsa Massacre this year?

noip simple mind ⋅ July 24, 2020 (edited July 24, 2020)


Honestly it is a sad reflection of our education system; I'm in my 30's and learned about the Tulsa Massacre this year as well due to the protests following Floyd's death. I'm also from the US and was taught that education is a requirement due to the US being a democracy--thus it requires its citizens to be engaged and informed as part of our civic duties. I think public schools have a responsibility in teaching its citizens how to think critically as we get bombarded with information from a variety of sources, many with their own agendas, and I don't think we've done as good of a job teaching people how to ask questions (However, I realize that public school teachers already have SO MUCH on their plates, and it is really unfair for them all of the things that are being demanded).
Part of the reason why is, as you've stated, encouraging the memorization of facts to satisfy exams. For that reason, students in some states these days have a really poor grasp of American history, which has been "cut down" in content because "it's not on standard exams."
And yes, curricula that focuses on a "memorization of facts" really doesn't foster a love of learning. emphasizes "spoon-feeding" from the instructor which could introduce bias into a student's thinking while tools to critique may not have been taught previously. And I think it burns out the best and brightest, where programs for the gifted and talented really means "more homework."

Your ideal for an education system sounds very wonderful. I do think it exists--but for the more privileged in society, unfortunately, who can afford what it takes to attract top talent.

Would love to see the education system you've imagined enacted across public schools, becoming the "average" or "standard" for teaching students. I do think that fostering a love of intellectualism-- e.g. reading, even textbooks, is very important as information is widely disseminated through the written word.

Anyway, I guess the tl;dr version of the above is that I do agree with you.

Also, when I was 8 I was grouped with peers at college-aged reading levels, so reading like a 16-year old felt very "meh." Lol.

eta: edited this reply to death for coherency. ~.~

DE_KentuckyGirl July 26, 2020

Nooo! Never stop buying more books!

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