I’m not doing very well. I feel sad, nervous and depressed. I have been isolating today, in my apartment, for the most part. My phone has been ringing off the wall. I can’t deal with it right now. I have talked to Bear. He is worried about me. I don’t want him to worry about me. He has enough to contend with, right now. I crossed my name off of the sign up sheet for the 4th. This whole thing is becoming a fiasco. I hope that they dont have to cancel it, but they were depending on me to bring roughly 30% of the items needed. I’ll bet the other three on the committee are very upset with me. I just could not take that one person anymore....bragging, acting like a know it all, putting me down, contradicting me and telling me that I am always wrong. I told her exactly what I thought, last night in a text. She acted as if she had absolutely no idea what I was talking about. She called, but I did not answer the phone b/c I was eating my lunch. Then I listened to a voicemail from another committee member, asking me to go down to the gazebo with the rest of them to finalize the plans for the party. It is one big mess.