I picked him up yesterday. when I got there, he, his mom and her friend tierra were outside. Te was drunk. I got dante his shoes, he took some toys and we left.
as I tried to leave, she asked you love me? I hurt you? and can i hug you?
I said yes, yes, no. If I hugged her, it would turn into a cry fest and all I wanted was to get out of there.
Later, the cops called. I guess someone reported that Dante was going around asking neighbors for alcohol for his mom. They told me they are mandatory reporters, so looks like DCS will be called.
Dante told me he did ask her neighbor Sarah for beer for his mom.
Dante stayed the night. I gave him a bath and got him ready for school. I called in sick b/c I got no sleep last night and have a half day anyway to take the boys to the dentist.
After I dropped dante off at daycare, I went by Te’s apartment. she is supposed to be at work. Nope. She said she called in sick last night. and doesnt have enough hours to cover the full day.
I will probably pick Dante up again.
I’m sad because I want to see Patrick. He said come over after the dental appointments, since he is working from home. but I wont be able to stay too long b/c I’ll have to get dante.
I’m not ready for Patrick to come over either.
I gave him the 411 about all of this, and told him that I guess this is MY deal breaker. he said what is? I said all of this, its a lot of drama, unexpected and I dont know what is going to happen. I didnt say, I may at some point end up raising dante… but he said. its life. this stuff happens. you deal with it best you can and move on.
I still feel shaky thinking about it. I still feel shaky thinking about how I was treated by Dementor when it came to my family and kids and Dante. and its hard to believe that Patrick is for real. I’m not used to it at all. It feels foreign to me.
anhyhow. I am about to leave for the dental appointments. and still havent slept… weee.