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I am in a constant search of an epiphany.

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Ive gotta get to cleaning the house, but I’m try to relax too. I did a little meditation after being irritated all morning. I feel better but I feel guilty that I ate McDonald’s. Idk why, but I h...


Just a quick entry… I haven’t drank alcohol simce my bfs birthday. Only two days, but I also hadnt drank anything for a week before that. I think I’m kinda over any urges to drink after that firs...


Today I took some time to give myself about 10 minutes of meditation. I’m hoping to try to make this more of a habit. It seemed to really help quiet my mind and refresh my soul a bit. I’ve been i...


Got grocery shopping done.. Ate a couple waffles and a berry smoothie for breakfast. I feel like I’m already hungry, probably just need water. I’m getting my meds and blood drawn right now. The d...


April 14, 2019

Sunday is my Friday in Spring 2019

Ive got 3 hours left of work and then I get a weekend. I’m glad. Hopefully I get a weekend alone, this time. I want to take my dog to the park possibly and walk around. Maybe I’ll do it after gro...


Today I’m trying to relax. I can say I havent had alcohol for one day. Feels good, but uncomfortable too. I’m just not gonna drink for awhile, I hope. I didnt buy any wine last week, but only a 6...


April 10, 2019

I almost left... in Spring 2019

I almost left yesterday and now I regret it. I’m so afraid of what may happen. He said he wished I had gone cause he was thinking that he could finally focus on himself. If I wouldve known that, ...


April 10, 2019

It may be over soon. in Spring 2019

I worry about my dog, Little Ann. I really hope if I leave, I can bring her with me. Id be terribly heartbroken if I had to take her back to the breeder to be adopted. She’s known nobody but me, ...


April 09, 2019

New Phone tomorrow in Spring 2019

I’ve decided I’m getting a new phone tomorriw. I buy prepaid phones so I’m just going to get the next upgrade, which really isnt much of one, but I don’t care. I’m going to get a LG Phoenix 4. I ...


Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with? Nope. Haven’t had any contact with him since I was 18. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons? Donate them to a school. What kin...


April 08, 2019

New Instagram in Spring 2019

I made a new Instagram account.. I don’t use it often however, but I could use friends I suppose. Look for kdawnf and a buddha picture and just add me. I’ll add ya back. I still don’t have a Fac...


April 08, 2019

My weekend in Spring 2019

Today is my Friday and its more than half way over. After lunch, theres only about 3 hours left. Then I can go home and relax. I may buy some beer that I like, instead of wine. Wine gets me too p...


April 06, 2019

Saturday in Spring 2019

Its Saturday and today is probably going to be crazy. Baseball season has begun and everyone is doing their running events. There’s supposed to be a disc golf tournament too this and next weekend...


April 06, 2019

Less than 10 minutes in Spring 2019

Ive got less than 10 minutes before i get to go home. I cant wait until Monday..It feels this week has gone by quickly, but then the weekend hasnt even started. The park is supposed to be crazy w...


April 03, 2019

Cleaning in Spring 2019

I spent most of today doing laundry and cleaning the house. I wish I could mop the floor but there really is no point because its raining and we have dogs. Maybe another time. I washed all the be...


Things seem to have gotten better, but I truly don’t know for how long and I still don’t know if the relationship is good for both of us. But onto more positive things: Turns out my dad has Mond...


March 26, 2019

denver in Spring 2019

What I feel when I listen to John Denver… A new peace from a frightening reality A new hope to cover the shit I go thru Its not all my fault… I can’t help it to think it. Its got to be it I done...


March 26, 2019

I am Drunk in Spring 2019

Things I’d like to do: To go a Dave Stamey concert. Go camping alone Hike Buy land cheap somewhere And find a way to afford it… Start a garden Love myself Depend upon myself Become spiritually so...


March 25, 2019

unofficial breakup in Spring 2019

Maybe… Idk how this is going to change everything


March 24, 2019

Another fight in Spring 2019

Another fight and I’m the one left feeling ashamed. I never do anything right. Its as simple as grabbing a dessert bar and not asking if he wanted one.. Which I admit, was selfish. Idk anymore, m...


March 21, 2019

Metaphorically in Spring 2019

This is just metaphorically thinking: I’ve looked mobile homes that I’d be able to afford. I cant afford a full house payment on my own, but if I could somehow save 10,000 dollars.. Like live at...


March 21, 2019

Just things in Spring 2019

I’m gonna try not to drink this week. I’ve already ruined today but I’ll try to start tomorrow. Today is the first day of Spring. I get paid on Friday. And I’m tired of every day becoming an arg...


It’s five AM. I started the crockpot with corned beef and vegetables. We decided to have St Patrick’s Day today since I have the day off today. I have to go grocery shopping soon. I also need to...


I finally transplanted my Roma Tomato sprouts to bigger pots. I made the mistake of putting 5 seeds in one hole so four sprouted within the same hole close together. I have to break the sprouts a...


Got to visit my 7 month old niece. She was smiling and staring at me almost the whole time. Very responsive and smart. I went with my SIL to a story time thing shes been going to the past couple ...


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