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I live in Northern California, with my boyfriend and our two dogs. - (I am in a constant search of an epiphany and trying to find some quietness in my mind. So I enjoy nature; forests, hence the username. The obnoxious roar of an angry city terrorizes the soul and the only way to heal is to RUN FOR THE HILLS!)

"The kind of seed sown will produce that kind of fruit. Those who do good will reap good results. Those who do evil will reap evil results. If you carefully plant a good seed, You will joyfully gather good fruit."

Dhammapada

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Idk what to feel anymore. I’m sick of living this reality. I’m so angry, because I’m so concerned. I fantasize about it almost once a week. I see these other guys at work that don’t have these pr...


This year, we only decorated a bit insode for Christmas. The tree isn’t even up.. We don’t plan on buying presents this year.. Maybe a bbq for us.. Idk this year had been tough and idk if there’s...


7 days ago

Misc in Autumn 2018

Upped my amount I put into my separate savings to $25 instead of $15. Just the extra $20 per month should help bring my savings up quickly, so if ever there is an emergency, I can use it. I want ...


November 27, 2018

Idk how I would do it... in Autumn 2018

Idk how I would do it, but I’d try to get my own place where I could bring my dog and hopefully live for cheap. I’d probably have to start out living with my dad again. Or another alternative cou...


Yesterday, I was about to clean up my first bathroom at the park. I open the Men’s and I notice what looks like a sleeping bag in the handicapped stall. I say “Oh” and then announce “Maintenance...


I’m new and on probation so they made me work on Thanksgiving and the day after. I do get a four day weekend though so I’m happy with that. I can go home early today as long as I get eevertrying ...


So I went to the Buddhist Temple at 8am because nobody was there at 730 and I had to go to the bathroom so I had to leave go find one. Anyway, I was nervous. There were only a few people in ther...


So I’m finally worked up enough strength to go to an Open Meditation at a Buddhist Temple this morning. I’m up right now at 530am. Took a shower, put on some comfortable clothes. I’ll drive to S...


November 15, 2018

New Glasses in Autumn 2018

I got a new pair of glasses. It feels amazing to be able to see better! I was able to spot a bird on top of a tree that was across the street, from my backyard! I couldnt believe it! Its gonna t...


I can’t believe how clean this house still is! I scrubbed both bath tubs, toilets, counters in both bathrooms and swept and mopped the floor of the house(we have tile) on Monday(my day off). I’m ...


November 09, 2018

Thousand Oaks shooting in Autumn 2018

Its freaking terrible, but I honestly believe the fact that this will set off a chain reaction to get rrid of our guns in Califotnia. Its already started. Newsom even commented about it..saying c...


Well, California is hopeless. I just started this job, so Idk what the hell I’m gonna do. Idk what my family will do either, but I’m sure LEGAL American people will move out as they move illegals...


November 05, 2018

Cant sleep in Autumn 2018

If things don’t work out, I’m going to do for myself. I’d get my own apartment and save my own money for emergencies and things I need and places I want to go and things I want to do. If things d...


November 04, 2018

idk in Autumn 2018

When things go so good, its all gotta end someway and somehow.. I honestly like being at work more than home, the past few days. Tomorrow is my 7th anniversary with him and hes not sure anymore a...


October 27, 2018

Healthier lunch Choices in Autumn 2018

As finances get better, I plan on making better changes to my lunches. Last week I literally was eating a sandwich with Cheetos. This week I changed it up abit and bought some grapes and cheese s...


Yesterday I finally had the epiphany that I no longer had to worry about my client anymore and just get to think about myself and do my life. It was such a relief to realize this. I sometimes fee...


October 26, 2018

Working a lot of hours in Autumn 2018

If like to think I’m losing weight but idk yet. I’m gonna give my body at least a couple weeks. I’m eating less and moving around more at my job so we’ll see in a couple weeks. After a day of wor...


October 22, 2018

So far, so good in Autumn 2018

I’m on my lunch break.. So far, everybody has been really nice. I filled out paperwork and theyve shown me around the workshop and community center.. Ive done the safety videos and after lunch, ...


October 21, 2018

First Day in Autumn 2018

Tomorrow is my first day of my new job! Well, I guess technically it’s more orientation but still, its going to be different from the last 5 years. I’m excited and nervous! Its just weird how I ...


October 16, 2018

Weight Loss?? in Autumn 2018

Idk how but Ive lost 3lbs since last time I weighed myself which was probably a week or so ago. Weird, but awesome! Idk but it encourages me to want to want to lose more.. Maybe its just water we...


October 15, 2018

Physical in Autumn 2018

I’m nervous! I’m waiting to take a physical. I really hope I pass.. I dont really know what it entails. I’m not worried so much about the drug test. I guess I can just give it my all. I wouldnt b...


October 15, 2018

Last Week of work in Autumn 2018

This week is my last week and then I start my next job. Today I need to do the physical and drug test. I’m hoping the physical isnt too crazy. I’m not really worried about the drug test. I’m gon...


There are some things I need to buy and do after awhile at this job. Id like to: Get new clothes Fix the things my car needs Get the dogs their rabies shots and a wellness exam Get the dog better...


October 08, 2018

Two Weeks. in Autumn 2018

Got two weeks before i start my new job. Tomorrow, I gotta do fingerprints and after that I’ll go get a physical and drug test.. I’m nervous but also excited to move on from my current job. I jus...


October 04, 2018

I GOT THE JOB!!!...l in Autumn 2018

After waiting what seemed like forever, I got the call back! Oh, I’m so happy!! All I gotta do is sign the offer letter they emailed me and send it back, then do the Live Scan and then a physical...


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