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4 days ago

Seeing other side in Hello

I’m really glad I met up with R last week. I always thought of him as a really good person & someone I really had a connection with. This week changed my mind on him. Now I think he’s a self...


Ok so my title might be a little dramatic, but hey so am I. In my quest to get over B, I decided to msg R. Great idea! What could possibly go wrong! 🙄 R & I went to dinner. The minute I saw...


November 08, 2019

Old patterns in Hello

For some reason, I just can’t quit B. I slept with him Saturday night. We haven’t talked since. I’m not surprised. He is so incredibly toxic for me.... but oh so sexy. He is everything R isn’t (e...


October 31, 2019

Breakdown in Hello

I had a breakdown last night. It’s all that stupid B’s fault. I tried backing away from the situation, but it didn’t work. We got a little closer instead. And then, he disappeared. Pretty sure he...


October 27, 2019

Boundaries in Hello

At work I was voluntold to work on our employee giving campaign. As if I didn’t have enough on my plate. So on Wednesday I organized my first ever bake sale (pro tip: if you ever run a bake sale,...


October 16, 2019

Reasons in Hello

Not to be totally cliche, but I totally believe R came into my life for a reason. He showed me what I really want in a relationship (well, the fact that I actually DO want a relationship) & ...


October 06, 2019

Letting go... soon. in Hello

I haven’t been in a relationship since I was 22. I’m 35 now. I’ve dated & wasted a lot of time on assholes, but those weren’t relationships. Even with the guys who weren’t complete assholes n...


October 02, 2019

2,3,4 in Hello

It’s been 2 weeks since we last talked. 3 weeks since you told me you didn’t have any romantic feelings for me 4 weeks since I’ve seen you. & I still miss you like hell. I told you not to ...


September 24, 2019

Romanticizing the past in Hello

I won’t say that I was completely miserable with R, but it wasn’t all sunshine & roses. Since the breakup, my mind has been running a highlight reel of our time together. So this entry is to ...


September 22, 2019

Guess this is letting go in Hello

So he did end up texting me back. “Good. I was thinking about you. I care about you and do not want you to be down in anyway. I honestly want to be your friend.” I told him I appreciated it, bu...


September 17, 2019

9/17/19 in Hello

‘Oh please, there’s always a competition with an ex, it’s called ‘who’ll die miserable?’ - sex and the city Or in the the new era of dating “who will text first?” The last thing I expected tod...


September 12, 2019

Sad in Hello

I’m sad. I’m going through the process. I know it’s not heart break. It’s the loss of a potential future that’s hurting me. It’s the loss of my Friday & Sunday night date, the loss of my Net...


September 10, 2019

Lessons learned in Hello

I think my long time readers are going to like this entry….. So, after I wrote my last entry, I got back with the guy. I talked to a friend who said to me that I had completely closed the door on...


August 22, 2019

Another breakup in Hello

I’m writing… must mean yet another breakup. This one is different. I never got too attached. On our first date I noped him. He was short, way too feminine for me, and not my type. We had talked f...


June 14, 2018

No shop June in Hello

So, no shop June hasn’t been a complete success, but I also haven’t really bought much at all. I have caught myself mindlessly browsing online.. & I have put a few things in my online cart. &...


I have a spending problem. I’m in way too much debt. I used to rationalize my debt by saying well I don’t make that much money & I have this mortgage all on my own. Well, I make a good salary...


May 04, 2018

Denial or shock in Hello

This is going to sound so weird, but I still haven’t accepted that my thumb is broken. I keep moving it & then screaming ow! I think it’s because everything happened so fast Fell Saturday. ...


April 25, 2018

Learning in Hello

I wrote this on the plane Monday night.... before I learned I need surgery. Figured I’d post it today anyways. It sums up how I feel. I’m very angry with some people in my life who claimed to be ...


i Wound up in the ER Saturday night. I fell at the beach bar & hit my head open. I have gashes on my face, back of head, a black eye AND a thumb broken in 3 places. Also messed up my neck a b...


April 19, 2018

Progress in Hello

I haven’t talked to C since Monday… which isn’t abnormal. Not going to lie I’m also weirded out by the fact that he wasn’t weird with me on Monday. I have questions. Like, was this a 1 time thing...


April 17, 2018

Not awkward in Hello

When I found out I was training with C yesterday, my first reaction was fuckkkkkk. Lol. I rarely train with C - it’s usually only if I need to reschedule or add an additional day. I can’t remembe...


April 16, 2018

Well then in Hello

I ended up at the trainers apartment last night. He gave me a massage for my sore neck & we grabbed dinner. It’s funny, other than the massage he was so freaked out about touching me in any o...


April 14, 2018

Fresh start in Hello

I deleted all my old entries. A lot has changed in the last few months, and I just wanted a new beginning. I won’t get into all of it, but I lost some friends, including the one who I considered ...


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