Melanin Monroe. ⋅

If you won't judge my du-rag, I won't judge your red flag.

Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, she became a butterfly.

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June 03, 2018

The last one. in 2018!

I’m on my way to the hospital. Doesn’t matter. I’m killing myself as soon as I’m released. Can no longer do this.

It might be time to go back to the hospital. I’m in total anguish over this. Lord, I need your help.

Last Friday, I was in the living room with my mom and the baby. Mom went to sleep, then baby followed suit. My phone was charging, so I played on my Mom’s iPad. She had incognito mode on, so al...

March 11, 2018

Betrayal. in 2018!

About 2 months go, my friend came to me, upset. Her group of friends, seemingly out-of-the-blue, stopped talking to her. She was hurt. I gave her the best advice I could, and told her I’d never...

March 09, 2018

I'm OK. in 2018!

Thanks to EVERYONE who texted to help me. I was having a very anxious couple of days. I’m OK now, the anxiety still lingers, but not as bad as a week ago. Love you all.

March 02, 2018

Thank you all. in 2018!

Phone gonna die. No electricity because of the wind storm. Be back later.

March 02, 2018

Text me plz. in 2018!

804-729-1360 I know most of you are at work, but I need anyone available to text me. I’ll explain it all during the text. I don’t care if I’ve never talked to you before. I just need someone badl...

February 27, 2018

Muscle relaxers, take me away. in 2018!

I’m in a manic phase. Honestly, though? Mania is fun. I have tons of energy and creativity. I feel GREAT. It’s not unlike some sort of uppers. However, the last time I slept, it was mid Sunda...

February 26, 2018

Mah burfday!!! in 2018!

Had a GREAT day, y’all. Thanks for all the birthday wishes!

February 25, 2018

My burfday is tomorrow. in 2018!

And I got the best gift ever today. 1) Playing with my nephews yesterday, and got the 3-month-old to smile so much to the point where he was almost laughing, and 2) Getting pulled over (I’m rid...

February 23, 2018

... in 2018!

I’m thisclose to having a nervous breakdown like the one that landed me in the hospital. Did I ever tell that story? It wasn’t pretty. There were cops involved and I got to wear handcuffs to the ...

February 22, 2018

I didn’t go. in 2018!

I know I need to, and I wil at some point. But I didn’t go in last night. Too much to explain and I’m on the bus to work right now, but basically my sister and her baby&baby daddy are kinda ...

February 21, 2018

Pray for me, y’all. in 2018!

I’m gonna check myself into the mental hospital in a few hours. I’m not well. They take all electronics, so I won’t be back here until I get out. It’s not what I want, but I need it.

So, my learning disabilities, as I remember, had to do with the fct that Iwas more immature than peers my age, and math comprehension. But, I was excellent at reading and writing. In 4th grade,...

February 16, 2018

Venting (part 1) in 2018!

My life was sort of set up for me to fail. At an early age, I was diagnosed with ADHD and a learning disability. They made me take pills in the morning and after lunch, and they made me go to a ...

February 10, 2018

Want free stuff?!? in 2018!

Who doesn’t like free stuff? This is NOT a paid endorsement! Just wanna share something that is helping quell my overly-anxious mind. Something I love is trivia. I DREAM of being on Jeopardy. ...

I’ve had a really rough week with the medication changes. I’m gonna actually make my own change, which one of my best friends on here (a nurse, btw,) helped me with. There’s a lot going on. I h...

January 31, 2018

Addiction. in 2018!

Hey guys, I’ll respond to your comments about the previous entry tomorrow, I just have to get this out while it’s in my head. BTW, thanks for all the notes, I have lots to think about in reguard...

January 30, 2018

... in 2018!

Shrink appt went horrible. I got my diagnosis changed from unipolar to bipolar#2. Ok. Told her about my bad anxiety. She did nothing about it. Told her about my auditory hallucinations. Again, n...

January 27, 2018

Talked off the ledge. in 2018!

Thanks to EVERYONE who reached out to me. My brain tells me to kill myself every now and then. But, I won’t.

January 08, 2018

Ughhhh. in 2018!

I don’t take my meds when I’m manic because, if I’m feeling good, why do I need them? I don’t take my meds when I’m feeling bad because, what’s the point, it’s not gonna work. I only took them j...

I want to take more pictures! I have started already. Any photo requests? Come on, I know you guys wanna see more of my pics! I’m gonna be on time for work more often. I’m gonna lose weight. ...

New book! I love the idea for this one. Then again, I’m running off little sleep, so whatevs. Had victories and setbacks already. 1) Went to Walmart at 4AM to get a tripod, yay 2) Made my nephe...

December 30, 2017

Photo requests? in My Life

I’m taking Ask Me Anything questions and photo requests! Questions will be answered and pictures posted tomorrow.

In lieu if a full sized Christmas tree, I settled for a very small flower from a plant called Cannabis Ruderalis, broke it up, rolled it in cigar paper, lit it on fire, and inhaled it’s smoke unt...

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