Melanin Monroe. ⋅

If you won't judge my du-rag, I won't judge your red flag.

Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, she became a butterfly.

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One year ago, today, I was released from the hospital. I’ve been out for longer than ever since I’ve been having mental health issues. Today has been a doozy. Yesterday, I called in to work bec...


Today, I saw my counselor and my psychiatrist. I complained about an embarrassing problem I’ve had for all of my life. I can’t concentrate. I go to use my phone’s calculator, but end up opening...


January 12, 2020

Being broke sucks. in My Life

I have a bad toothache. I’m pretty sure it’s an abscess. I’ve taken Tylenol, Motrin, aleve, and used topicals like Orajel. Nothing works. I know it’s abscessed, because I’ve had one before, and ...


January 05, 2020

The hard part. in My Life

I have BPD. And I just made a decision to move back in with my parents And idk If it was the right choice. But, in the apartment, my cousin was living with us. There was an incident, which caus...


October 28, 2019

Surgery tomorrow. in My Life

Y’all, send me some good vibes! I get a surgery tomorrow that I need and will improve my life! Pray the pain is minimal! Love you all.


August 29, 2019

I’m not o-fucking-kay. in My Life

I know I don’t write much, but that’s mostly because I don’t have a computer. Typing on the phone is irritating. Excuse the typos. Monday, I found out my camera was ‘gotten rid of’. My DSLR, len...


Our roommate just fucked up our apartment.


July 04, 2019

New diagnosis. in My Life

Turns out, I’m probably not bipolar. I probably have borderline personality disorder. Which, I feel, is worse. More stigmatized. No medicine helps, just intense therapy. A lot of people don’t su...


Yesterday, I told my dad to die slow and go to hell. And I meant every word of it. I even texted him ‘I hate you, never speak to me again, and I mean it’. And, I do mean it.


June 15, 2019

Dear dad. in Daddy issues.

Father’s Day is tomorrow. And I want to tell you something. I need you to understand this message and take it to heart. From the depths of my soul, with every fiber in my being, FUCK YOU, DIE S...


What if the person who abused you your whole life, was told by doctors he might die soon?


February 18, 2019

Finally made parole. in My Life

Guess who has 2 thumbs and just spent 8 days in the mental hospital?


December 31, 2018

Best thing ever. in 2018!

I’ve moved out of my parents house. Never felt better emotionally in my life. Details later.


Someone I share 23 chromosomes with told me I should have been put up for adoption and told me I’m a bitch.


November 18, 2018

Damn, Instagram. in 2018!

Never been so confused in my life. I posted a pic of leaves on the ground. My cousin commented something to the effect of ‘love you, cuz’ and such. Problem is, this is the cousin who molested ...


October 17, 2018

Prayers appreciated. in 2018!

Hello friends. I need y’all to pray for me. Please. I’ve been sick with pneumonia/bronchitis since late September. I’m on the mend, but not there yet. The steroid (Prednisone) is helping with...


October 05, 2018

Coughing up a storm. in 2018!

Guys, I’m sick. 1) I violently coughed for 2 whole weeks with no medical attention, thinking it would get better/go away. It didn’t, so I went to the ER last weekend. Turns out, I had pneumonia...


October 02, 2018

For the record in 2018!

Pneumonia + no PTO time sucks. Also, how TF am I working harder than my healthy co-workers?


September 21, 2018

Confessions. in 2018!

I don’t have bipolar/PTSD/ADHD/anxiety or any other mental illness. I also don’t have tachycardia or any heart issue they’re testing me for. The real reasons for my perceived health (mental as w...


September 03, 2018

Bye, y’all. in 2018!

Sorry, but I can’t do this shit anymore. I fucking tried. I fucking fought. HARD. But I lost.


Every time I go inpatient, somebody dies. My manager passed away.


August 15, 2018

Back. in 2018!

3 days was long enough. Four times in one year is too much. I might apply for disability. The diagnoses and pills keep adding up.


August 12, 2018

Again. in 2018!

I’m in the hospital.


August 11, 2018

I snapped. in 2018!

Finally told my sperm donor what I thought of him. Now, I’m homeless. Worth it, though. I meant it when I said I hope he dies and burns in hell.


August 01, 2018

That took a lot out of me. in 2018!

My cousin Rufus. He’s the reason I love big dogs. He taught me so much. Taught me how to train dogs. Introduced me to vegetarianism. At the age of nine, I had my first job as his assistant. He p...


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