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The man who looks for security, even in the mind, is like a man who would chop off his limbs in order to have artificial ones which will give him no pain or trouble.

Henry Miller

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October 24, 2022

When the bus pulled away in Magma

We had spent the entire weekend together. We had willed our souls to meet in the flesh and let our demons play and I felt how tender your skin was. How thick your hair was and how a man can miss ...


August 26, 2022

Dust in Magma

It has been a long time but perhaps I shall renew here. Rattle these bones and grow flesh anew Bring light to darkness and my soul renew


January 19, 2018

Dad - The update in Magma

Dad was released from the hospital the beginning of this week. He’s been home and resting up. I have been a real mess lately, mainly because for the first time I found out that the second name on...


January 07, 2018

Dad - update in Magma

He is in the CCU, recovering from his pneumonia. Bp 110/56, no fever, still intubated but hoping between now and tomorrow to be off it. His doctor came in, she is optimistic.


January 06, 2018

Dad. in Magma

I got the call this morning at 1am from my mom that they were taking him to the hospital. He’d been coughing alot in the afternoon at the shop. They are trying to rule out anything involving his ...


January 05, 2018

Brrrrrrrrrrr. in Magma

It is cold. The blizzard has hit us and gone like a horrible one night stand. I’m at work and the heat is out in the office, the shop area is fine as their gas heat is going strong. My fingers a...


December 16, 2017

lyrics on my mind in Magma

Wish that you were here - Florence & The Machine I’ve tried to leave it all behind me But I woke up and there they were beside me And I don’t believe it but I guess it’s true Some feelings, t...


November 30, 2017

Bacon Camp in Magma

The idea has sprung up between a bunch of friends regarding a trip North to Michigan for something called “Bacon Camp”. Timing is late May-June which may not bode well for my work schedule. Tim...


November 30, 2017

Open Diary....... in Magma

So I was told by a friend and read an announcement that the old stomping grounds will be returning to action and making good on old “lifetime” subscriptions and handles. My curiosity is officiall...


July 30, 2017

Restless in Magma

When all you crave is the touch of a woman one’s mind is on fire. In drought I am an inferno.


July 25, 2017

Burning Lust... in Magma

It’s on my mind, replaying imagery in my mind. That is all....


June 06, 2017

Ghost Ship in Magma

Countless nights my mind returns to this dock, searching out for this one ship, this place where the memories echo and I find that smile, that thick hair between my rough fingers. All these thoug...


January 16, 2017

Piqued in Magma

Being this aroused in the morning is going to throw a throat punch into my productivity. And I might need new pants.


December 15, 2016

Pepper Update in Magma

It has been almost 2 weeks since Pepper disappeared. My wife is heartbroken and I am just quiet, looking out at night out the window hoping for a miracle that won’t happen. I’ve never been attach...


December 08, 2016

Pepper. in Magma

Sunday night he escaped the house. Unsure if it was when Nina got home or when I went out the back sliding door to get a fresh load of firewood. It has rained and temps in the evening have been c...


November 25, 2016

My December Fire in Magma

It will be your birthday soon. A fact which pushes to the surface like an abandoned castle in the distance. I have journeyed there many times in my mind but that is all. A hollow gesture to someo...


September 07, 2016

..... in Magma

I’m not sure why but gone is all I get. Perhaps this is a speck of what it felt like for you when the line of communication was ripped apart. I don’t know. I just wish there was some closure so I...


August 05, 2016

So... in Magma

I can’t wait for fall to arrive, most people look at me like I’m crazy but this heat and discomfort doesn’t work for me. Meh.


July 02, 2016

Long weekend in Magma

The kids and my wife are upstate this weekend to visit with friends. My work schedule really screwed me this year considering they have a great party and the weather is zero humidity. Plus cigar...


June 23, 2016

Bye girl... in Magma

Miss Kitty passed away yesterday. She was 18+ years old and she was a sweet cat. I saw my son howl in pain and tears when he realized she wasn’t coming home from the vet. She had a tumor the siz...


June 20, 2016

In my chest.... in Magma

Here in my waking hours I contemplate many things but the one that is always here is you. You appear to me like a ghost and yet the clenching of hands in Vegas, our embrace. It is all things and...


April 13, 2016

When all is quiet in Magma

I hear the ice cream truck outside my office window. It’s 6:15, an hour and change past quitting time but I have work to get done. I saw my doctor and got onto to some anti-anxiety meds for the t...


April 05, 2016

Anxiety in Magma

I’m in a bad way right now, can’t remember it ever being this bad. To the doctor’s office Thursday, am going to ask for a script of anti-anxiety meds. Hate this.


March 16, 2016

Dad.. in Magma

My dad’s in the hospital again and I’m all nerves all over again. Congestive heart failure. Blocked artery (?) Haven’t slept since two nights ago.


March 10, 2016

Words in Magma

There is much I want to say everyday to you. Apologies, stories about my life, the kids, my hopes. But mostly just to hear your voice. I miss it’s cadence, the soft sway of your voice and hear...


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