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My daughter is going through an especially challenging stage right now. There are two things going on simultaneously. First, she’s extremely attached to me. Like, it really borderlines on obsess...

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Well, there have been some positive developments since my last entry, thank god. Yesterday my husband suggested we all go to the grocery store together. This is what we always used to do, before ...

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I did it. I survived the week. My husband promised me that tomorrow, I could sleep in as late as I need to. You know, it’s the strangest thing. Being so unprocessed and emotionally vulnerable th...

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21 clients down. 6 clients to go. Usually I only schedule 26 clients per week, and the only reason I was able to schedule 30 this week was because I scheduled 9am appointments on four of the day...

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14 clients down, 14 more to go. I still feel like hell. I’m exhausted. My baby has been waking up at the ass crack of dawn, crying. I think she’s having bad dreams. She’s also still being clingy...

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Yesterday I was thinking to myself, I predict it will take two full weeks before I feel like myself again. I asked my husband how he was feeling, and he said “surreal.” He’s been extremely overw...

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I still don’t know how to even begin to document what this trip to Washington was like. I guess, to simplify it, I’m just going to make a list of highs and lows. Lows: Because we had to share ...

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Dude. I don’t even know how to start this entry. I’m currently in Lake Chelan, WA with my parents, my siblings, my siblings spouses, and their children. We are a total of 12 people, and we’ve be...

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So, for the past several days, I have had really mild cold symptoms, mostly in the evening, that I’ve been chalking up as paranoia. I have a long history of psyching myself out about shit, and I ...

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Well let’s see. I said I was going to make more video entries, but I haven’t. There may be a few contributing factors, but if I’m being honest, I suspect the biggest reason is that I feel unattra...

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I feel like I haven’t written in forever, but it’s been a moderately eventful week. For one, our mother in law was on a girl’s trip with her sisters and her mom, so my husband and I had to stagg...

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Let’s see. Well, I started drinking again, gained back all the weight I had lost, and messed up my sleeping schedule. So that was dumb. I had my last drink on Sunday night and have decided to ta...

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I have a whole thought process I wanted to write out this morning and less than ten minutes to do it ONCE AGAIN. Gah. There is never enough time, it seems. One of my friends was recently writing...

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I tried to re-watch the video tour of my condo a few times, and it was painfully boring. I plan to continue making videos under my other diary name to remedy this. All of our patio furniture has...

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Dude, this week has been SO disorienting. My whole schedule at work has just been wonky as fuck. Usually this is how my work week looks: I have three clients on Tuesday morning, then I watch my ...

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Today was the day I was planning on doing a video tour of my condo. I may still do it, but I haven’t decided. I want to be in the right mood when I do it. Right now I just kind of feel like slack...

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As some of you may remember, I had booked a fancy spa for my husband and I to celebrate our three-year wedding anniversary. Well, California has ordered all of the spas to close, so that isn’t ha...

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I wish I had more time to write right now. I’m literally supposed to be meeting with a client, but the client is late, so I only have however long it takes my client to show. I’m likely going to ...

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I just started Schitt’s Creek and it is hilarious. Other than that, there were just a few things I thought were worth mentioning this morning. One, I started a VLOG on a separate ProseBox. It’s ...

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Last night was my little girl’s first overnight with her grandma and grandpa. It was kind of a big deal! I made dinner and poured myself a generous glass of wine. After dinner my husband and I bu...

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Last night I decided, on a whim, to look back and see if I could find the entry after one of my ex boyfriends, Brandon, showed up to my studio in the middle of the night and sexually assaulted me...

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Where to start? I got my first paycheck after getting my annual raise, and it was about $100 more than I am used to. So that was nice. I also mentioned to my supervisor that I’d been thinking ab...

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I just wanted to write down a quick thought before I get ready for work. Lately, to my surprise, I’ve been feeling really grateful for the fact that I am a woman. Weirdly enough, the thought fi...

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As you know from my last entry, the day started with a negative pregnancy test. Okay. I was prepared for that. Then I drop my daughter off at my in-laws and do a Target run. I was looking forward...

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I took a pregnancy test this morning that showed I was not pregnant. Then, a few hours after I took the test, my period started. There are pros and cons to this. Cons are that 1) I have to wait ...

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