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She will be 16 months old on May 3rd. Things she can communicate: She can sign “more” and “all done.” She uses these signs both when eating and when doing an activity. She can catch kisses. She...

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So, really quick—at my work there is the “boss,” who owns the nonprofit and is in charge of hiring and firing, and there is the “supervisor,” who I write about frequently. The supervisor meets wi...

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Therapy last night was interesting. There isn’t much conflict going on in my day to day, so it’s giving me an opportunity to dig a little deeper. I talked a little bit about my family dynamics an...

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Guys. It is currently 8:50pm and I’m off of having family-related responsibilities until tomorrow at lunch. It’s a beautiful thing. I do have to finish my progress notes for work and turn them i...

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I need to get something off my chest. I know I’m the minority here, but I really think the way the country is handling the pandemic is impressive. I think the fact that hundreds of millions of p...

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Whelp. I called to schedule an appointment with a neurologist and left a message. They, of course, didn’t call me back until minutes before they closed. So now I’m going to have to wait until Mon...

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Remember how I wrote an entry about potentially being contacted by spirits? Well, the experience I described has continued happening, but my understanding of it has shifted. After talking with pe...

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I’ve got just under ten minutes before I start my day. What can I say? Well, for one, even though I scheduled time in the mornings to do non-clinical work, it is challenging to not be lured into ...

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This is what I’ve noticed about the dynamic between myself and my husband. Stressor: As a result of the current pandemic, my husband’s hours at work were reduced from full time to part time. Thi...

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I have nothing on my calendar other than to show up to work four days a week for the foreseeable future, and I love it. I continue to daydream about house projects. Today I’m expecting my daught...

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It’s just another lazy Saturday at my place. I’ve been thinking more about what kind of changes I want to make to our condo. So far my husband is on board with all of my ideas. He said, dependin...

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For the record, I feel really good right now. An unexpected gift of the quarantine is that this unique situation has shown me just how much energy I was exerting unnecessarily to appease people ...

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I’m being naughty because I’m supposed to be working right now, but I have been staring at the inside of my condo for days now, trying to think about what the next project can be, and it finally ...

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One thing that stinks about being a mama is that I feel like I can’t ever stay up late, not even on the weekends, because my baby wakes up every morning like clockwork and I’m the one who wakes u...

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It’s back to the work week. While my days off are a little more flexible (which has been nice), I have been doing my best to create a structure for myself on the work days. On Wednesdays and Fri...

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Not to sound like a broken record, but I love this quarantine. It brings me back to the days of my studio apartment, which I also remember fondly. I think the thing I love most about it is the am...

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My life has been so chill lately. I am doing my best to enjoy the shit out of it while it lasts. I just got done buying a ton of stuff. The first wave of stuff was on Amazon. I bought my daught...

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Ooph. I’m a tired mama. Today was the last day of my “work week.” I’m glad that I won’t have to work for the next few days. I do love being with my baby. I also love being able to stay up a litt...

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I feel like there are things I want to say, but I am not sure how to find the words right now. Working from home has certainly had its pros and cons. Primary pro: I do not feel as emotionally d...

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This morning, as I was taking a shower, all I could think about was how much I never want this quarantine-life to end. How, I wonder to myself, can I build a life that allows me to keep this leve...

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For the first time since I can remember, I put my daughter in her crib wide awake, told her I loved her, and walked out… and she didn’t cry. She lay herself down and fell asleep in less than fiv...

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I’m on, like, day 30 of craving cigarettes. I just watched another thought-provoking episode of Sex and the City (LOL). On this episode, there was “breakup sex.” My husband was in the room while...

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I talked to my therapist last night. I told her how I’ve been thinking of “I” and “J.” (I feel like I have to use the quotation marks because “I” just looks confusing by itself, haha). The though...

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I forgot to mention that one of the problems with my daughter not napping isn’t just that I don’t get a break for 12 hours straight, it’s also that she is a very unlikeable version of herself for...

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I know I don’t have to do this, but I feel like I should. Yes, I am the mental health therapist to over 20 people per week, and the vast majority of them spend their hour talking about the coron...

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