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Ooph. I’m a tired mama. Today was the last day of my “work week.” I’m glad that I won’t have to work for the next few days. I do love being with my baby. I also love being able to stay up a litt...


I feel like there are things I want to say, but I am not sure how to find the words right now. Working from home has certainly had its pros and cons. Primary pro: I do not feel as emotionally d...


This morning, as I was taking a shower, all I could think about was how much I never want this quarantine-life to end. How, I wonder to myself, can I build a life that allows me to keep this leve...


For the first time since I can remember, I put my daughter in her crib wide awake, told her I loved her, and walked out… and she didn’t cry. She lay herself down and fell asleep in less than fiv...


I’m on, like, day 30 of craving cigarettes. I just watched another thought-provoking episode of Sex and the City (LOL). On this episode, there was “breakup sex.” My husband was in the room while...


I talked to my therapist last night. I told her how I’ve been thinking of “I” and “J.” (I feel like I have to use the quotation marks because “I” just looks confusing by itself, haha). The though...


March 25, 2020

Day Drinking in Staying Connected

I forgot to mention that one of the problems with my daughter not napping isn’t just that I don’t get a break for 12 hours straight, it’s also that she is a very unlikeable version of herself for...


March 24, 2020

How I Do in Staying Connected

I know I don’t have to do this, but I feel like I should. Yes, I am the mental health therapist to over 20 people per week, and the vast majority of them spend their hour talking about the coron...


I just got done with my first week of work in this new social distancing world. The last two days I worked completely from home. As a matter of fact, for the last two days I haven’t left my house...


March 21, 2020

Safe At Home in Staying Connected

Wednesday and Thursday I went into the office just to use the space while holding all of the therapy sessions via phone or video. Last night LA County announced “Safe At Home restrictions.” I hon...


March 19, 2020

Catastrophe in Staying Connected

Hello everyone. I don’t even know what to say here right now. Shit is crazy, in more way than one. Let’s see. I went to therapy on Monday. I cried about my situation with my supervisor. Somethin...


March 15, 2020

#Unstable in Staying Connected

It recently occurred to me that my world crumbling around me this week shouldn’t actually come as a surprise. There was a time change, a full moon, Friday the 13th, the Coronavirus, and if that w...


March 14, 2020

Real Self Care in Staying Connected

I’m feeling raw this morning, with difficult, heavy emotions looming just beneath the surface. As I feel myself slipping toward negativity, the importance of self-care in the form of healthy cho...


March 13, 2020

Self Sabotage in Staying Connected

Omg, you guys. Totally was really rough. As you all know, I was already having a tough week. This morning I really wanted to get off to a better start. I woke up at the earlier time, did a 15-mi...


March 12, 2020

Defeat in Staying Connected

I feel in over my fucking head right now. I just text messaged all of the clients I was supposed to see today and said I’m not coming. Of course, I said it in a professional way, but I just… I c...


March 11, 2020

Feeling Sharp in Staying Connected

Live, from the bathtub. This weekend was rough for me. We lost an hour due to the time change. My husband decided not to go to church, so I lost the only alone time I get in life. We decided to...


You want to know a secret? I’m not that motivated to make more money or to become an excellent therapist because I’m honestly so happy with my life outside of work right now. I love my little gir...


March 05, 2020

Therapy in Staying Connected

I spent the drive to therapy thinking that I didn’t have anything too pressing I needed to talk about, but the one issue I wanted to touch on was my issues with authority. Each week when I see my...


March 02, 2020

Money Stuff in Staying Connected

Happy Sunday. I made it through another work week. Today was supposed to be “food prep day,” but literally right now, as I was going to write about that, I realized that all of the chicken we we...


March 01, 2020

Maybe... in Staying Connected

When I quit breastfeeding about a month ago, I got mad sugar cravings and gorged on cookies. I then promptly became constipated, gained 10 pounds, and grew a firm, round belly. Embarrassed, I rep...


February 29, 2020

Explaining Myself in Staying Connected

I currently have 280 non-clinical hours (treatment plans, progress notes, supervision, training, and continued education) remaining until I’ve completed the hour requirements for licensure. I’ve ...


You know, I don’t know if this is just a phase that will pass or not, but lately I really don’t feel the need to write too much in my diary. What’s new? Um… my baby is incredible. I am obsessed ...


February 22, 2020

When Needs Are Met in Staying Connected

Omg, you guys—so many things are falling into place!! It just feels so nice =) I am so happy that my schedule at work has finally settled down. I feel like I’m doing pretty solid work with my cli...


February 20, 2020

Making Strides in Staying Connected

I’ve had a very fulfilling last few days. For one thing, I’ve made great progress at boundaries. I already mentioned a few things here, but to summarize my eyes suddenly opened to the way my bou...


February 18, 2020

Self Improvement in Staying Connected

My daughter (I have to get used to saying that instead of baby, gah) decided a couple of months ago that she will nap for my in-laws, and she will nap for my husband, but she will not nap for me....


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