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Man that stings. I found the letter from the previous cps officer that broke me that day. I was punished for speaking up about what happened to Sunny on those forced sleepovers. The young, childl...


Jesussssssssss. I dont even want to keep typing this out over and over....but if anyone has read any other previous posts of mine…lets just say the new cps officer is just like the rest. Ive sti...


I felt physically sick the day that cps was going to visit birth mom to try and get her involved…so many nerves. I thought that she agreed to the visit....I find out that shes still not interest...


Fuck. Just fuck. So court was adjourned again. The new child services officer came to visit Sunny yesterday to meet him. What always gets me is no matter how much i do…and how Sunny continues to...


I stopped doing the dishes tonight to type this up lol. Theres just so much going on in my head right now I had to vent. I have never, ever been in this place before. Its kind of scary to be hone...


Its been so long since I wrote! felt like i have been racing against the clock trying to get everything done lately. Well to be brief..... I had to have an at home meeting about me being ‘terse’...


I wonder if anyone else has been in this position for whatever reason....you have your home that has so many memories....where some loved ones lived with you that may not be with you anymore....s...


Got a night off tonight....finally! but its just hard to shake this heavy feeling on my shoulders. The thing is with cps is that even if you do everything possible not to rock the boat they will ...


Had to have that meeting at my house today. Im not dealing well with it at all.... they turned it around again....they said due to how hostile I have been to child services they are “concerned fo...


My random ramblings book is just me writing about my non-foster care stuff. Its boring, you dont have to read it lol but if you do feel free to comment I enjoy reading them :) Just did my entry a...


April 14, 2019

Crushed spirit in Foster Care Life

It has taken me a while to get up to writing again. I have just felt so crushed and so worn down I didnt even want to write about it and just wanted to switch it off. Now I feel ready to start w...


Got an email saying that a different child services officer and their team leader is visiting next week, along with my support worker and her team leader for a “discussion”…i notice that shes try...


Truly amazes me the lengths some women will go to, to be bitchy....the close mindness of some. Went to a charity gala the other night, and had the most amazing time. This morning one misery guts ...


Im honestly just spent...... Still hearing nothing..I call the child services office asking to be updated on the court outcome. I get told Sunny’s c.s officer isn’t available. After she hangs up ...


March 25, 2019

Cranky in Foster Care Life

Yup court was yesterday....and I had to call my support worker for her to remind c.services officer to tell us the outcome. Every single time…my support worker has had to prompt him multiple time...


Kind of still speechless. The day after I wrote my last entry, My support worker calls. Amongst the usual stuff she always says, she said to me, if you end your foster care license, Sunny will ha...


This morning was hard. Its what always happens when I have to let Sunny know that I’m told hell be sleeping over at his aunty’s house again. He wasn’t himself, and does what he always does....wo...


You know how bad stuff happens and you’re like omg i can’t deal I’m at breaking point! but you keep going? yup thats not breaking point, you’re extremely stressed but you still have hope! Well, I...


Sorry guys, I know my blog can be a bit of a downer....but this is my place to vent..writing is a good outlet for me and I did written journalling in a book for many years but running out of room...


What helps ya’ll to focus on the good instead of the negative/stressful stuff? its a work in progress for me. I find what helps me is to try and be involved more in the community. With everything...


I can’t describe how I’m feeling right now.. So i got a letter today from child services in regards to the investigation they did on what happened to Sunny. (investigated by a child safety office...


Someone said to me recently…ask smart questions and you will find out what the department is hiding from you. Well yesterday I decided to email my support worker and ask why does court keep being...


Well just had a phone call from support worker. Never heard her so angry, she said to me, after my email stating perhaps the team leader isn’t the most informed on this topic..a young girl with n...


People are really fucking cruel. And really fucking stupid. Child services told me not only will they not reimburse the consultation appointment I made for Sunny at a private clinic to get him o...


February 28, 2019

Non Stop in Foster Care Life

I have been told by my support worker, that child services are discussing with team leader about Sunny attending appointments at the new clinics I found. I mentioned I read in the foster carer’s ...


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