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Ada Limón

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6 hours ago

8/13 in daily.

The thing about being skinny is that so many things that might look good on someone else will simply refuse to cooperate with the flatness of your body. I do enjoy being thin most of the time– wh...


being negative is destructive, but i can’t quite help it. here’s a catalog of things that i’m very insecure about, just because i’ve been thinking about how these flaws make it hard for me to eve...


2 days ago

8/10 in daily.

(Regarding going out with a friend, finding parking, not using debit cards, squealing at plushies, talking about boys, and soothing my skin with cucumber slices). Yesterday I went out with my fri...


4 days ago

8/9 in daily.

(Regarding bus-taking, mural-visiting, swimsuit-buying, lack-of-curves body image problems, guilt about money-spending, learning new things, and becoming more hopeful). Taking the bus seemed much...


5 days ago

acorn. in daily.

The only thing I hate about going outside is tanning in odd places and having patches of my skin turn the nutty color of acorns, or, I guess, the color of nuts in general. Apparently, cucumbers, ...


6 days ago

8/7 in daily.

The longer trail that I wanted to go down today in the nearest district park happened to be closed. Apparently, it’s 3.2 miles and continues into another, farther, and larger park, so I wouldn’t ...


7 days ago

rude, period. in personal.

Every time the crimson curse is late and I write that fact out on paper or on the internet, it suddenly arrives. The cramps hurt so damn much even though I took a painkiller yesterday night. I on...


August 05, 2018

8/5 in daily.

Today I went to the nearest antique mall slash flea market. I walked more than half an hour to the bus station, which probably would have only taken me twenty minutes to walk to if I hadn’t been ...


August 04, 2018

8/4 in stress space.

Spending money is so stressful and makes me feel so guilty almost every time. I don’t know if I want to go out and buy stuff in this heat, or wait until next week when the tax-free back-to-school...


My physics teacher always had mustard and ketchup and other sauce packets, as well as napkins, on top of her microwave. Normally she also spared some popcorn to keep in her classroom. Sometimes I...


He told us once that he keeps the strip of paper printed with “UTILITIES CLOSET” next to the door so that, during lockdowns, he can tape it to the window in the door and fool the possible school ...


In other words, the inevitability of the start of college is still making me want to swallow my own existence and disappear into the seams of the universe. Someone please tell me going to college...


My whole train of thought is basically one giant key smash right now. College scares all of my carefully cultivated and nurtured logic and positivity right out of my ass and I don’t know how I’m ...


July 03, 2018

sticky. in stress space.

The poetry really needs to stop. I was proud of myself for writing all this “poetry” until I realized an alarming amount of the things I wrote during senior year were about Hallway Boy. Obviously...


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