by Jeanie

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4 days ago

Small Spaces

I never quite got this phrase - “take up space” until yesterday. I made the connection that my voice is minimized so much at home that I get paranoid in other interactions, worried someone views...

5 days ago

Today I feel

Unsure of how to proceed. He’s noticing I’m different. I did give in to sex a few days ago. Don’t regret it. But I’m just not reacting to anything. I’m not myself and he knows it. When he got ba...

June 04, 2021


So I’ve been reviewing old entries from OD from 2009 through 2012. It looks to me like I was used to help him win custody. Details point to it. In January 2011, we had one of the worst fights we...

May 30, 2021


Im changing my screen name to be less identifiable. I know some of this might just look like an endless stream of random memories but there’s so much I am remembering that was forgotten. Here’s...

May 28, 2021


So today, just a little bit ago I did something. I had to see for myself. We had just gotten home from a memorial service for a veteran. SG was asking for something to eat. She got a bowl of bl...

May 27, 2021

Thursday May 27

Just logging things that I might forget: One recurring situation that stands out in my mind is that when I am reprimanded, its as if I’m a child. And the times I have mentioned as such, I get som...

May 25, 2021

I Think He Has NPD

New direction for my journal. I have come to a point in my life where my reality has been questioned. Some days I feel like I’m looking at a stranger. Then, an hour later I just want to forget wh...

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