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by Original Rose

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18 hours ago

Wrench

So… I pretty much lost my job today. Sigh. The first half of the day I went about my business as usual. I saw my first three clients, and then I went into my weekly two-hour Zoom meeting for gro...


I’m having a really great day today. I’m finally starting to feel like I’m back on track. I think that time and therapy have both played major roles. It’s been really hot in California for the p...


Okay, so the first and least important thing I’ll mention this morning is that I’ve decided, and I’m going to schedule a haircut. I feel relieved already. Second, I had another productive therap...


Every Monday I spend the day with my daughter while my husband works. Yesterday, after I put my daughter down for a nap, I was feeling particularly anxious about all of the things that I knew in ...


Those of you who watched the video in my last entry know that yesterday, while I was working, my husband took my daughter to a family gathering on his father’s side against my wishes. I didn’t te...


7 days ago

Done

Dude, I feel soooo unmotivated right now. It sucks. I feel like I need a vacation, like a real vacation away from the stressors of family. I need to get away. I just ordered myself a new pair of...


September 09, 2020

Mundane Morning

I’m currently at the stage in my cycle where I feel like its impossible to keep my condo up to a basic standard of cleanliness. The other day I heard on the radio that millennials only clean thei...


September 08, 2020

Hardcore Momming

I just added a butt ton of stuff to my daughter’s Amazon wish list, keeping in mind her new daily schedule. Today was my first day with my daughter and we stuck pretty close to the schedule. I’m ...


September 06, 2020

Pictures

Hey. It’s Saturday night and I don’t have anything important I need to be doing, so I think I’m going to post this, take a shower, and then call it a night. I decided on a whim that I wanted to ...


September 05, 2020

Shout Out To My Mamas

So much to say, so little time. But the good news is that I got to sleep in until 8am today. Winning. The topic I’d like to write about (but sadly there’s no way I can cover it today) is one tha...


September 04, 2020

Deep Seated Dysfunction

I stayed up about an hour past my bedtime last night, and then my daughter woke up thirty minutes before my alarm was supposed to go off. So I’m a little tired this morning. This week my app thi...


September 03, 2020

Scary Close

I counted up my hours yesterday. I am currently fifty non-clinical hours away from having completed my three thousand hours, you guys. I almost started this entry talking about how I’m worried a...


September 02, 2020

Why You So Obsessed With Me?

Ooph. It’s been a bumpy morning for me. I’m SO GLAD to report that my daughter slept just fine last night (wipes sweat of relief off forehead, haha). And she woke up happy! I highly suspect that...


September 01, 2020

Parenthood...

My daughter is going through an especially challenging stage right now. There are two things going on simultaneously. First, she’s extremely attached to me. Like, it really borderlines on obsess...


August 31, 2020

The Light

Well, there have been some positive developments since my last entry, thank god. Yesterday my husband suggested we all go to the grocery store together. This is what we always used to do, before ...


August 30, 2020

Ghosts

I did it. I survived the week. My husband promised me that tomorrow, I could sleep in as late as I need to. You know, it’s the strangest thing. Being so unprocessed and emotionally vulnerable th...


August 29, 2020

Desperate For My Mornings

21 clients down. 6 clients to go. Usually I only schedule 26 clients per week, and the only reason I was able to schedule 30 this week was because I scheduled 9am appointments on four of the day...


August 28, 2020

Not Great

14 clients down, 14 more to go. I still feel like hell. I’m exhausted. My baby has been waking up at the ass crack of dawn, crying. I think she’s having bad dreams. She’s also still being clingy...


August 26, 2020

Fumes

Yesterday I was thinking to myself, I predict it will take two full weeks before I feel like myself again. I asked my husband how he was feeling, and he said “surreal.” He’s been extremely overw...


August 24, 2020

Lake Chelan Part II

I still don’t know how to even begin to document what this trip to Washington was like. I guess, to simplify it, I’m just going to make a list of highs and lows. Lows: Because we had to share ...


August 22, 2020

Lake Chelan

Dude. I don’t even know how to start this entry. I’m currently in Lake Chelan, WA with my parents, my siblings, my siblings spouses, and their children. We are a total of 12 people, and we’ve be...


August 14, 2020

No Matter What, It's Okay

So, for the past several days, I have had really mild cold symptoms, mostly in the evening, that I’ve been chalking up as paranoia. I have a long history of psyching myself out about shit, and I ...


August 10, 2020

Anxiety

Well let’s see. I said I was going to make more video entries, but I haven’t. There may be a few contributing factors, but if I’m being honest, I suspect the biggest reason is that I feel unattra...


August 08, 2020

August

I feel like I haven’t written in forever, but it’s been a moderately eventful week. For one, our mother in law was on a girl’s trip with her sisters and her mom, so my husband and I had to stagg...


August 04, 2020

Back Slide

Let’s see. Well, I started drinking again, gained back all the weight I had lost, and messed up my sleeping schedule. So that was dumb. I had my last drink on Sunday night and have decided to ta...


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