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by Safina

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Its been so long since I wrote! felt like i have been racing against the clock trying to get everything done lately. Well to be brief..... I had to have an at home meeting about me being ‘terse’...


Got a night off tonight....finally! but its just hard to shake this heavy feeling on my shoulders. The thing is with cps is that even if you do everything possible not to rock the boat they will ...


Had to have that meeting at my house today. Im not dealing well with it at all.... they turned it around again....they said due to how hostile I have been to child services they are “concerned fo...


April 14, 2019

Crushed spirit

It has taken me a while to get up to writing again. I have just felt so crushed and so worn down I didnt even want to write about it and just wanted to switch it off. Now I feel ready to start w...


April 05, 2019

Feeling defeated

Got an email saying that a different child services officer and their team leader is visiting next week, along with my support worker and her team leader for a “discussion”…i notice that shes try...


Im honestly just spent...... Still hearing nothing..I call the child services office asking to be updated on the court outcome. I get told Sunny’s c.s officer isn’t available. After she hangs up ...


March 25, 2019

Cranky

Yup court was yesterday....and I had to call my support worker for her to remind c.services officer to tell us the outcome. Every single time…my support worker has had to prompt him multiple time...


Kind of still speechless. The day after I wrote my last entry, My support worker calls. Amongst the usual stuff she always says, she said to me, if you end your foster care license, Sunny will ha...


This morning was hard. Its what always happens when I have to let Sunny know that I’m told hell be sleeping over at his aunty’s house again. He wasn’t himself, and does what he always does....wo...


You know how bad stuff happens and you’re like omg i can’t deal I’m at breaking point! but you keep going? yup thats not breaking point, you’re extremely stressed but you still have hope! Well, I...


March 17, 2019

When will this end

Sorry guys, I know my blog can be a bit of a downer....but this is my place to vent..writing is a good outlet for me and I did written journalling in a book for many years but running out of room...


I can’t describe how I’m feeling right now.. So i got a letter today from child services in regards to the investigation they did on what happened to Sunny. (investigated by a child safety office...


Someone said to me recently…ask smart questions and you will find out what the department is hiding from you. Well yesterday I decided to email my support worker and ask why does court keep being...


March 05, 2019

Got in trouble today

Well just had a phone call from support worker. Never heard her so angry, she said to me, after my email stating perhaps the team leader isn’t the most informed on this topic..a young girl with n...


People are really fucking cruel. And really fucking stupid. Child services told me not only will they not reimburse the consultation appointment I made for Sunny at a private clinic to get him o...


February 28, 2019

Non Stop

I have been told by my support worker, that child services are discussing with team leader about Sunny attending appointments at the new clinics I found. I mentioned I read in the foster carer’s ...


February 24, 2019

So wrong

The anger in me is absolutely boiling. I spent hours, on the weekend, researching new and more competent medical specialists for Sunny to get him away from these lunatics. I provided all their de...


February 21, 2019

Going out with a bang

I know if Sunny is moved, I will no longer be a foster carer. Even if I didn’t voluntarily run for the hills, I’m sure I will be kicked out of the agency. I’ve written this entry hoping theres o...


You know that weird tingly feeling where you predicted something would happen (not like in a psychic way but just a guess…a thought…suspicion..) Well, Sunny came back from sleepover today…he said...


February 15, 2019

I am NOT the bad guy!

Holy hell how more cruel can this get, seriously. Had a home visit recently (as a foster carer your support worker, and the child’s officer from child services visit every 2 months or so to check...


February 10, 2019

Yes, this actually happened

Well Child Services are still sending Sunny back to the house to sleepover. They made me attend a meeting to say I shouldn’t be “labelling” the behaviour and I shouldn’t have sworn at the after h...


January 21, 2019

It gets worse

Well…yep..it got worse. Absolutely nothing has been discussed with Sunny’s birth relative about everything that has happened. Child Services are refusing....yes this is actually happening- NOTHIN...


January 12, 2019

The icing on the cake

I am a foster carer. The child in my care, I have put my all into. I will nickname the child Sunny. Sunny is loved and well cared for by myself and my family, a very close bond has blossomed betw...


Book Description

I want to share what I have experienced, but I also can’t be too specific. People need to know.