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I hate myself

by Smiling Brighter

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No real reason for this entry. Just feeling down. I hate when I come home to early in the evenings. I think too much. I want to continue to be strong. I am. I will get through it. Again. J...


Because. It has been foreverrrrrrrr since I did one of these. What was the last song you listened to? Crush. By Mandy Moore Are you one of those lucky people with 20/20 vision? Yeah. With my gl...


Monday’s suck. Especially when your weekend was sooooo good and you didn’t want it to end. Blahhh. It looks like it’s going to cut loose and storm again anytime now. Yucky day. No sun. On th...


Tuesday is my sisters 59th birthday!! Fuck how did we all get in our 50’s! Ickkkkk. However. We all work and have tons to do throughout the week. So we’re celebrating today! Cookout and yummy ...


Omg. Such an adorable little town. We had to go to Walmart in Cincinnati because we didn’t know for sure if there was one here. There is small little cute shops. I would love to go in them. But...


5 days ago

My Friday

Today is my Friday. I’m off tomorrow. Work wife has to come here to Columbus tomorrow anyhow. So she’s going to finish up my work. yayyyy. I’m excited. I’m going to Norwood, Ohio tomorrow for a...


6 days ago

Girl

I would give anything I could right now. To be a boy. Man. Whatever. I don’t like girl feelings. They make me feel vulnerable and stupid. Yep. They do. But God put me into this world who I am...


7 days ago

Bad Morning

I’ve been at work for an hour and a half. And I am already on one. Soon as I walked in. The crazy fuck secretary started in. This person did this. This person did that. Fuckin really? Aren’t...


July 15, 2019

A Week ago today

Warning....this entry will be all over the place as I am still processing and dealing with feelings…feelings that are fucked up right now......and yes…I know you’ll be reading..but I don’t care…d...


July 05, 2019

Tireddddd

So I know I need to write it’s been for ever… so much has happened but I come here and I get writers block…I know what I want to say but it doesn’t come out. Had a busy weekend and somehow it has...


I swear this is Monday. It has been Monday all frickin day today. Anything and everything that could go wrong. Has. But. Here I am. Still trying to make the best out of the day. Some days ther...


June 23, 2019

Well melt me down

Today. I had a slightly small mini meltdown. Without further ado. Let me warn you. This is not your typical happy go lucky entry. Ok? Let me also say. Even tho I am just a page of words to mo...


June 22, 2019

Finally Friday

And two weddings and a funeral later. I made it. This has been a trying week. To say the least. I’m determined to have a good weekend. I don’t have much to write about this evening. But wanted...


June 19, 2019

A superpendous day

Today we had open interviews at work. It was a awesome great time. We had a very nice turnout. I think we have “a few” good candidates out of the day. 😁😁 afterwards we went and got some dinner ...


June 17, 2019

She got married

It should have been me. Maybe? Maybe not. They say everything happens for a reason. And we just weren’t meant to be. Not like I didn’t try. I just don’t try anymore. Not with anyone. As m...


June 17, 2019

My Uncle Paul

Last week my cousin contacted me about my Uncle Paul and Aunt Arlene’s 60th wedding anniversary party next month....I gave her addresses she needed or the invites on my side of the family...........


June 16, 2019

This Father’s Day

For Father’s Day. I would like to wish all the great dads out there. A great one! For all the. Deadbeats and ones that were never a father. You’ll regret it someday. I woke up this morning and ...


June 15, 2019

As luck would have it.

Today is a blah rainy day. Ick. I was supposed to be in New York this weekend. Visiting my childhood friend. But she and her gf got into a fight and were “splitting up” soooooo I opted out of th...


May 13, 2019

Of all days

There are 365 days a year. And on my Birthday. An exes mom dies. And on mother’s Day to boot I feel so bad for her. But she’s got plenty of support in her life. She’ll be fine. It’s just sad....


May 10, 2019

What a feeling.

I know this isn’t exactly exciting to most people. But to me. It means the world. 10 years ago this week. Not sure of the exact day. I filed bankruptcy and ruined my excellent credit I always ha...


May 07, 2019

New

Today I met a newborn little baby named Ella. She was the sweetest little cuddly thing ever. She liked laying on my pillows I think I need to patent these suckers. Hahahahaha. She laid so peac...


May 06, 2019

Too Beautiful!!

I decided. It’s just way to beautiful to work. I have tons I could be doing at home. That’s fun. Hell with this work thing. I’ll come back tomorrow and see if it’s a better day for working. Ha...


May 05, 2019

Busy as a bee

I haven’t been here in a long long time. I have kept myself busy I guess. Few things have happened or will happen. And I will he even more busy in the next few weeks. First of all. My sister B...


April 18, 2019

I’m tired.

I worked a lot of my day today. Didn’t leave Out of town office until almost 6pm! It was really in need of some catching up. So I got every single paper filed or sent off to where it needed to go...


April 17, 2019

Gale

One of my favorite people in the whole world passed away yesterday. He was a remarkable singer. He had a little show on VaughnTv. I’ll miss you Gale. And I hope you’re singing in Gods choir now....


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Just a small girl in a big huge world.
Or maybe a big girl. In a small world.