I hate myself

by Smiling Brighter

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7 days ago

Of all days

There are 365 days a year. And on my Birthday. An exes mom dies. And on mother’s Day to boot I feel so bad for her. But she’s got plenty of support in her life. She’ll be fine. It’s just sad....

May 10, 2019

What a feeling.

I know this isn’t exactly exciting to most people. But to me. It means the world. 10 years ago this week. Not sure of the exact day. I filed bankruptcy and ruined my excellent credit I always ha...

May 07, 2019


Today I met a newborn little baby named Ella. She was the sweetest little cuddly thing ever. She liked laying on my pillows I think I need to patent these suckers. Hahahahaha. She laid so peac...

May 06, 2019

Too Beautiful!!

I decided. It’s just way to beautiful to work. I have tons I could be doing at home. That’s fun. Hell with this work thing. I’ll come back tomorrow and see if it’s a better day for working. Ha...

May 05, 2019

Busy as a bee

I haven’t been here in a long long time. I have kept myself busy I guess. Few things have happened or will happen. And I will he even more busy in the next few weeks. First of all. My sister B...

April 18, 2019

I’m tired.

I worked a lot of my day today. Didn’t leave Out of town office until almost 6pm! It was really in need of some catching up. So I got every single paper filed or sent off to where it needed to go...

April 17, 2019


One of my favorite people in the whole world passed away yesterday. He was a remarkable singer. He had a little show on VaughnTv. I’ll miss you Gale. And I hope you’re singing in Gods choir now....

April 09, 2019

You don’t say?

I’m getting death threats from the young lady I let go yesterday. Lol. Ok. Well make sure you come and stab me and shoot me dead. (Her words) I’m pretty sure tho. If she stabbed me first. I wou...

April 08, 2019

Ungrateful asshole

Just to vent. If it’s one thing I hate. Is people that are self centered ass jerk off ungrateful assholes. Call me to try and figure something out about their job. Then get mad when you don’t giv...

April 08, 2019


I’m having a pretty rough day. I got a B on a test I really busted my ass over. I really expected an A. At this rate. I’ll never make deans list. This is so important to me and looks really nice...

April 02, 2019

Ex’s and Oh’s

Today has been good. I’m feeling lots better and I’m certainly thankful for that. Went to work and then to lunch with work wife. We went to chipotle and had bad service. But the food was ok. On ...

April 01, 2019

Kind of better

Today I felt slightly better. I still feel irritable and tired. But overall it really wasn’t a bad day. I managed to make it through. And I really don’t feel entirely drained. I got some homew...

March 31, 2019

That’s a wrap

I still haven’t been feeling well at all. I can’t seem to shake this flu/cold thing. Lately I have absolutely no energy for anything. I tried to go to a conference 2 weekends in a row. And found...

March 22, 2019

Happy Friday

I’m glad Friday is here. I’m ready for a weekend. I’ve had a pretty rough couple weeks. In and out then back in the hospital with pneumonia. I fought having to go in. Both times. But then there...

I’d dance with you in the living room for the rest of my life. I miss our living room Sighs.

March 03, 2019

Typing with one hand.

It’s hard to type with one hand. And no perverts. It’s not what you’re thinking. Hahahahaha. Last night. We were cutting a block of Colby cheese and Melissa used this huge butcher knife. Later ...

March 01, 2019


*singing*Friday Finally came around. This girls ready to paint the town. Well maybe not the town. Maybe paint the town from my chair watching a good movie? Yesssss I am out of here at 2 today....

February 27, 2019

Love, Me

Can you be in love with 2 people at the same time? Just asking for a friend. Yeah. A friend. I have developing feelings for Melissa. She’s really an awesome lady. The whole. Little bit older tha...

February 26, 2019

My new car

I’m so over the moon with my new car! I couldn’t wait any longer. I had to go get it yesterday. It’s sooooooooo beautiful. The color is so awesome. Always wanted a blue car. and it has appleplay...

February 25, 2019

Weekend fun

Is it Monday already? Goodness. It was just Friday and I was off and having fun. I had a remarkable weekend. I went car shopping. And spent much needed time with my sister and niece. I don’t ne...

February 20, 2019

In the end.

18,563.45 that’s the total of funds them scum bag low life mother Heffers. Got away with. I have to go down tomorrow to the main office and get a new card and sign some papers for the reversal of...

February 18, 2019

Don’t even have to leave

I don’t even have to leave the house. And I can have a pretty effed up day. First off. Some asshole mo fo got into my bank account in DENVER nonetheless. And so far has spent 114.00 at a Chipot...

February 15, 2019

And yet another. For the win

Just had yet another blind spot aura migraine. I hate those so bad. Of course it had to happen during cooking something for tomorrow and I had just started laundry. I should be in a dark room....

February 15, 2019

Bored at work

I’m so bored today. This is what I get for getting everything done yesterday. Unless something comes up. This day is going to drag along. I’m going to lunch soon. But that takes what? An hour? Lo...

February 14, 2019

I didn’t go

I didn’t go to dinner with girl 👧 We exchanged a few texts today before we were to meet and it became clear what she wanted. I told her to go spend VD day with her wifey to be. She didn’t c...

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Just a small girl in a big huge world.
Or maybe a big girl. In a small world.