My Life

by Melanin Monroe.

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3 days ago

I wanna write.

Seems like every day I write an entry in my head, but I can’t put it to paper. I still owe pictures and an entry from my surgery. I’m still living in the hotel. Been here since April. Will be h...

October 08, 2020


Apparently, I was wrong to assume that my coworker would be drawing the patient’s blood, even though she specifically asked me to bring her some 25 gauge butterfly needles.

August 25, 2020

Y’all, I’m sorry.

I’m still working on what I want to say about my surgery. Haven’t forgotten. Mother Nature is on her way. My mental health drops when this is happening. Just the other day, I was trying to figu...

August 19, 2020

Aye! It’s done!

I’m so happy! And sore! Anyway, how to post pics? I’ll share my story when I can, but you gotta be able to see pics to get the full impact.

August 18, 2020


I go in tomorrow morning and get the thing I should have received 2 weeks ago when I had that minor surgery! I’m still at work at the moment. But it’s like, I just wanna go straight to bed when I...

August 09, 2020

Epic fail!

The return didn’t go as planned. Blame it on the surgery and my mind being elsewhere. Anyway, I got my nose pierced today. I’ll try again this week with constant entries.

August 05, 2020

hello there

I did have my little minor surgery yesterday, but one thing, one big thing (to me) didn’t go as planned, so I don’t wanna write about it just yet. This should be rectified by the end of the mont...

August 03, 2020

Things are going great.

Tomorrow, I will either A) Have surgery, or B) Enjoy my day off, being safe and warm inside It’s up to God and the weather at this point. If I end up staying in, I’ll probably write a huge entr...

Did you ever think that you wouldn’t be able to go into a Waffle House and order a waffle, hash browns with onions and cheese, and coffee? Man. I miss this place. I just replaced my iPad and purc...

I’ve been to 5 protests in the past 5 days. Gassed twice. The scariest part of being black is that I can be killed for no reason, and others would try to justify my murderer’s actions.

I do not enjoy being a girl. When my cycle starts, I get awful pain in my thighs. Along with debilitating cramps. And, if I eat on the first day of my cycle, I will throw up. Usually, my period ...

One year ago, today, I was released from the hospital. I’ve been out for longer than ever since I’ve been having mental health issues. Today has been a doozy. Yesterday, I called in to work bec...

Today, I saw my counselor and my psychiatrist. I complained about an embarrassing problem I’ve had for all of my life. I can’t concentrate. I go to use my phone’s calculator, but end up opening...

January 12, 2020

Being broke sucks.

I have a bad toothache. I’m pretty sure it’s an abscess. I’ve taken Tylenol, Motrin, aleve, and used topicals like Orajel. Nothing works. I know it’s abscessed, because I’ve had one before, and ...

January 05, 2020

The hard part.

I have BPD. And I just made a decision to move back in with my parents And idk If it was the right choice. But, in the apartment, my cousin was living with us. There was an incident, which caus...

October 28, 2019

Surgery tomorrow.

Y’all, send me some good vibes! I get a surgery tomorrow that I need and will improve my life! Pray the pain is minimal! Love you all.

August 29, 2019

I’m not o-fucking-kay.

I know I don’t write much, but that’s mostly because I don’t have a computer. Typing on the phone is irritating. Excuse the typos. Monday, I found out my camera was ‘gotten rid of’. My DSLR, len...

Our roommate just fucked up our apartment.

July 04, 2019

New diagnosis.

Turns out, I’m probably not bipolar. I probably have borderline personality disorder. Which, I feel, is worse. More stigmatized. No medicine helps, just intense therapy. A lot of people don’t su...

February 18, 2019

Finally made parole.

Guess who has 2 thumbs and just spent 8 days in the mental hospital?

December 30, 2017

Photo requests?

I’m taking Ask Me Anything questions and photo requests! Questions will be answered and pictures posted tomorrow.

1) Have you ever considered moving away from your home state? Not seriously, but the thought has crosed my mind. I do want to have new experiences, meet new people, and get the vibe of some new ...

December 19, 2017

In an effort to write more...

What do you guys want to know about me? Ask me absolutely anything. I’m pretty much an open book.

December 16, 2017


Tonight, I came out of the closet to my mom, sister, and brother. So, I’ll come out to y’all now. I’m gay. I’ve known since I knew what the word meant, but I’ve always tried to change it. I didn...

November 28, 2017

I have a baby on the way.

I’ve been sick. I threw up basically all of Sunday, some of Monday, and once today. I thought that was from norovirus, but, also, you all should know, I have a baby coming. He will be here tomo...

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My daily rambles