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I just want to sleep.
Mourning. It comes in waves. And you never know when another wave will hit You never know what the next moment will bring. Will you cry with the next memory? Will you laugh? The worst part is ...
Bipolar powers, activate!
I was doing really good with my mental illness. But now I’m sitting here at work, with loads of energy, giggling to myself, and talking my coworkers heads off. Mourning all week, now I’m manic?...
If I didn’t laugh, I’d be fucking crying.
My cousin just died. And I didn’t want to go over my family’s house because I didn’t want to hug anyone. 1. Because I work on a COVID unit, and 2. Because I literally just got my nipples pierced...
I wanna write.
Seems like every day I write an entry in my head, but I can’t put it to paper. I still owe pictures and an entry from my surgery. I’m still living in the hotel. Been here since April. Will be h...
🤦🏽♀️
Apparently, I was wrong to assume that my coworker would be drawing the patient’s blood, even though she specifically asked me to bring her some 25 gauge butterfly needles.
Y’all, I’m sorry.
I’m still working on what I want to say about my surgery. Haven’t forgotten. Mother Nature is on her way. My mental health drops when this is happening. Just the other day, I was trying to figu...
Aye! It’s done!
I’m so happy! And sore! Anyway, how to post pics? I’ll share my story when I can, but you gotta be able to see pics to get the full impact.
Tomorrow!
I go in tomorrow morning and get the thing I should have received 2 weeks ago when I had that minor surgery! I’m still at work at the moment. But it’s like, I just wanna go straight to bed when I...
Epic fail!
The return didn’t go as planned. Blame it on the surgery and my mind being elsewhere. Anyway, I got my nose pierced today. I’ll try again this week with constant entries.
hello there
I did have my little minor surgery yesterday, but one thing, one big thing (to me) didn’t go as planned, so I don’t wanna write about it just yet. This should be rectified by the end of the mont...
Things are going great.
Tomorrow, I will either A) Have surgery, or B) Enjoy my day off, being safe and warm inside It’s up to God and the weather at this point. If I end up staying in, I’ll probably write a huge entr...
Life is certainly different.
Did you ever think that you wouldn’t be able to go into a Waffle House and order a waffle, hash browns with onions and cheese, and coffee? Man. I miss this place. I just replaced my iPad and purc...
The hardest part to accept.
I’ve been to 5 protests in the past 5 days. Gassed twice. The scariest part of being black is that I can be killed for no reason, and others would try to justify my murderer’s actions.
Even when I have a brand new hairdo with my eyelashes all in curls...
I do not enjoy being a girl. When my cycle starts, I get awful pain in my thighs. Along with debilitating cramps. And, if I eat on the first day of my cycle, I will throw up. Usually, my period ...
The end of the world as we know it.
One year ago, today, I was released from the hospital. I’ve been out for longer than ever since I’ve been having mental health issues. Today has been a doozy. Yesterday, I called in to work bec...
If my psychiatrist is correct, you’ll be seeing a lot more from me.
Today, I saw my counselor and my psychiatrist. I complained about an embarrassing problem I’ve had for all of my life. I can’t concentrate. I go to use my phone’s calculator, but end up opening...
Being broke sucks.
I have a bad toothache. I’m pretty sure it’s an abscess. I’ve taken Tylenol, Motrin, aleve, and used topicals like Orajel. Nothing works. I know it’s abscessed, because I’ve had one before, and ...
The hard part.
I have BPD. And I just made a decision to move back in with my parents And idk If it was the right choice. But, in the apartment, my cousin was living with us. There was an incident, which caus...
Surgery tomorrow.
Y’all, send me some good vibes! I get a surgery tomorrow that I need and will improve my life! Pray the pain is minimal! Love you all.
I’m not o-fucking-kay.
I know I don’t write much, but that’s mostly because I don’t have a computer. Typing on the phone is irritating. Excuse the typos. Monday, I found out my camera was ‘gotten rid of’. My DSLR, len...
The hits just keep on coming.
Our roommate just fucked up our apartment.
New diagnosis.
Turns out, I’m probably not bipolar. I probably have borderline personality disorder. Which, I feel, is worse. More stigmatized. No medicine helps, just intense therapy. A lot of people don’t su...
Finally made parole.
Guess who has 2 thumbs and just spent 8 days in the mental hospital?
Photo requests?
I’m taking Ask Me Anything questions and photo requests! Questions will be answered and pictures posted tomorrow.
Questions answered! Ask me more!
1) Have you ever considered moving away from your home state? Not seriously, but the thought has crosed my mind. I do want to have new experiences, meet new people, and get the vibe of some new ...
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My daily rambles
