Daddy issues.

by Melanin Monroe.

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June 17, 2019

It had to be said.

Yesterday, I told my dad to die slow and go to hell. And I meant every word of it. I even texted him ‘I hate you, never speak to me again, and I mean it’. And, I do mean it.

June 15, 2019

Dear dad.

Father’s Day is tomorrow. And I want to tell you something. I need you to understand this message and take it to heart. From the depths of my soul, with every fiber in my being, FUCK YOU, DIE S...

May 26, 2019

I...just don’t know.

What if the person who abused you your whole life, was told by doctors he might die soon?

December 12, 2017

Lots of pictures!

So bright and alert! I could almost eat cereal out of his dimples! He’s the best baby ever. Barely cries, unless he’s hurgry, gassy, or wants to lay down. He has a lot of hair...

October 31, 2017


Basically, my dad assaulted an employee at 7-11 for threatening my sister. So, he gets to go to jail. Not sure how long just yet. Haven’t had the courage to ask.

October 30, 2017

Pray for my dad, y’all.

He’s going to jail. Details later. I know we have our differences, but I’m scared for him.

August 15, 2017


I did something real stupid. Ended up in the hospital, now I’m getting help for my issues. I’m so glad.

November 07, 2016


Have you ever had to watch everything you say? It is so very odd being around my Jehovahs Witness side of the family. I almost asked my uncle if he’d heard that our cousin Montre was sworn into ...

My dad and I are getting along so much better these days. It’s like night and day. He’s changed so much. I wish he’d always been like this. Ok also he’s getting better about my brother. He crie...

October 19, 2016


My dad is still so upset. My mom and him are going to a psychologist Monday. My dad said he feels like he’s being punished. So much for that unconditional love a parent has for a child.

So, Friday night, my dad asked if I had a dollar he could have. I handed him my card, but he wanted real cash. I counted out some change and gave it it him. He knew C(my brother) and K(his boyfri...

October 15, 2016

Shit hit the fan.

My homophobic, Jehovah’s Witness dad caught my brother kissing his boyfriend last night.

August 29, 2016

Psychological issues.

I’m calling in today. I kept forgetting to take my Zoloft, for like 3 days. Big mistake, because I’m full of anxiety. My parents are on a cruise, and I can’t stop worrying. Then, I was stopped a...

August 28, 2016

One of those days...

I’d really prefer physical pain to emotional. At least I’m good it hiding it. Quote of the day (from my 7 year old niece)– Boys are like bubblegum. They smell good, but they get rotten after a ...

August 27, 2016

Throwing shade.

Soooo, my parents left for Puerto Rico on Friday. I made every effort to see my mom before the trip. I met her on the bus before it pulled off. My dad was in the store. I made zero effort to s...

August 23, 2016


Every time I see a good father-daughter relationship, I feel sad. Why couldn’t that have been me? Why did my dad hate me? I just remember all the mean things my dad did to me. Like the time he ac...

April 11, 2016

I didn't wanna.

As I write, I’m on the drive through line to get some Zoloft. It’s getting bad. Depression sucks. It’s not just the sadness. It’s the lack of energy. My memory? That’s non existing. I was tryin...

April 08, 2016

Almost $1,000 later...

I finally have my license back. Thank God!!! Work is going great. I’m so glad to be where I am. Tomorrow, I have my well-woman’s exam. Life’s great. Still working on the photo suggestions send...

March 22, 2016

Rough day.

My Bad days have gotten fewer and further between, but they still exist. Today, I felt all ADHD and just generally not myself. My coworker touched me for one reason or another and I flinched, ou...

March 13, 2016


What does it mean to forgive? Can you forgive someone, and still hate them? I think I’ve forgiven my dad for abusing me. But, in my heart, I feel like I hate him. What he did to me affects me da...

Sometimes, I can put the past behind me. Sometimes, for no particular reason, it creeps back up, unleashing a wave of memories I wish I could erase. The past few days, I’ve been miserable, for no...

January 08, 2016

God is great.

I’m just amazed at my life right now. New job is great.

December 27, 2015


Had a conversation on Christmas with some random dude, just pouring out my heart about my dad. ‘Cut him off’, he says. ‘The relationship is hurting you. Your don’t deserve that from anyone’. ‘I k...

November 21, 2015

2 minutes

Still made it in time 😃

November 06, 2015

Wait, what?

Yesterday, I hung out with my dad for a while. It was nice. He was in a great mood. Last night, he and mom started arguing. Mom wouldn’t answer her phone, so he called me asking for her. He did t...

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