11:04pm in 日記

I’m not religious but something about the shrines in this country makes me feel like trying.

I come to these shrines, purify myself and donate what I can.

50Y for luck, an extra 100Y for the cause.

I bow, I clap, and I pray.

Although I ask for the success of other people, I know that the Kami can see that deep down it’s a farce.

The more times I tell myself I want them to be happy and successful, the more true it becomes, right?

There is truth in that statement. As time passes my heart and mind have settled with the idea of what success and happiness may mean for them.

However, I know there are moments when I want to “win.”

I remind myself there is no winning when your heart is so bitter it wishes for others to fail.

They deserve to be happy.
They deserve to live a normal life.
They deserve to be and love whoever they desire.

I am not the only person in this world that matters.

I will keep asking for their continued happiness and soon someday mine will come around.